Truth. Faith. Hope. Anxiety

today♡ honesty. And a breath. Most people do not know that I struggle with debilitating anxiety.

Know that whatever you may think anxiety looks like... it may not be what you think or see.  It looks different on everyone... there is no 'one size fits all.'

Most suffers try to do whatever they can to hide their inner struggle because it's not acceptable, even though there has been so much awareness on Mental Health. This pandemic has created a whole new set of circumstances.

Many hide behind a smile on the outside, while tears flow rampantly on the inside.

For me, this is situational and I am working through it, with the assistance of so many people who support me. I am struggling with where and how I fit into this crazy world. Sometimes I feel like a fish out of water, swimming upstream, against the flow..  not quite understanding where I am headed. 

What am I seeking?   Peace. And. HOPE  AND Love.

Am I grateful 🙏? Why yes I am..  about so many things, gifts, talents, experiences..  for so many reasons am I grateful. 

Anxiety, depression, panic attacks, are not something that just go away with time, or one gets over, its a daily, one moment at a time challenge. Its work... often very difficult and often brings up many triggers. Thats where we get to define what may be going on inside. But when we are triggered... what's often left is a rampage of irrational responses and reactions. Back to square one. 

Last night I struggled with one insane breath at a time... 2 days of feeling frozen in time, not being able to understand what I was feeling or why... just counting moments until I could try and go to bed and then, with some hope and luck, I will sleep. 

When I look back, I cannot even remember when I was last truly happy for a significant length of time. That doesn't mean that I have been all doom and gloom. It's not like that.... or at least not always.  Doom and gloom is not my m.o. 

I was a happy, joyful child. I was a happy and creative teen and young adult. I did struggle, we all do. This is so different. 

So... when I post Be Kind. Be Happy. Dig deep to discover the hope that IS inside you. Look closer into the eyes and heart of the person across from you. A smile or kindness ☺ may make the world of difference to someone.

For today... my peace.  I love you. 

I love you. 

Please forgive me. 

I am sorry. 

I forgive me.

Thank you♡ 

The Enchanted Journey ~ w/Grace

I am supposing in this moment that if we could make the choice, to treat each day as though it was a new opportunity or one step closer to... to what? I may be a tad mixed up today... those days do exist for everyone, again, I suppose. 

But what could get in the pathway between myself and my 2021 dream. The answer could be may things, but the one in which lay at the tip of my tongue is about the 'Highest Good of All Involved." Giving it up to the Powers that may be, the powers that know the best, that work alongside me, always guiding, sometimes taking breaks to make sure that roses are sniffed, and balloons are sent up into the air with a vision, prayer, or wish. 

And so I begin my journey inward to see where the messages may lead me. The pathway, at times, even the times where we may believe that we know exactly where we are going... the first turn before us is a mountain. There are so many interesting aspects of this mountain, as though it has eyes, and ears; but yet it is ancient, ready to absorb the wisdom of the many... of the ages. What is most important to see is that the journey is being guided by the unknown sanctity of the the moon. The moon, hugs the shadows and embraces the pathways... leading by remembrance... "Be still and the path will open up befoer you, a light will appear to allow us to both support and surrender to our choices.

The Mountain may appear as an insurmountable obstacle. Stand in awe of the mountain, stand in reverence.. really see.  You will come to understand that you can be like the rivers that flow around, and sometimes through the mountain so naturally... with me effort, only a natural flow. Whatever the obstacle that you may have perceived as unexpected... it is here to teach. Now, more than ever, is the time to adapt to circumstances; holding deep in your soul to take one step at a time, opting to align with the Divine... the next right action will come to light. 

When it comes to being mindful and consciously aware of our thoughts, it can sometimes create an air about us of someone who does not want any help or assistance of any kind. This is especially true as we learn to trust in Spirit and Pure Faith. But what we may need rescuing for most likely is not what one might think. The assistance isn't to tell you which passageway to turn or such, but rather, to offer support and inspiration along your journey; perhaps to open your eyes fully, or to close your eyes and listen more intently for a clue. This is about being truly fearless and fully trusting. What is needed most at this time is to expand your awareness... your life, to open up to new discoveries that will assist you with the big tasks at hand. Trust this. Have faith. Lock it IN <3 

ASK; know your supports and ask. Both in Living and in the SPirit World. Commit to a undeniable
relationship with Spirit so that when faced with another hill to climb, you can peacefully close your eyes and just watch as conditions line up, as if by magic... all to provide you with the tools and insight that are necessary for your journey. So what may seem unsurmountable in the moment... merely requires a step back to a place of peace. Remember... Find your place of peace and go there often. 

There is no need to fear. Safety is a place within.  Due North. Home.  Keep this safe if your heart and recall when you most need to find the peace. 

All of these messages come forth as we may be entering uncharted territories (at least for me at this moment). Rather than being worried, or scared, or creating chaos... Spirit is asking me to sit back and expect wonderful new experience to come my way... to lead me to where I am going. SPirit is reminding me about True North and to stay on this Highest Path, which is my destiny. To know, trust, and have faith that Spirit, God, the Divine, can only serve this function, and it must be aligned solid with clear chakras, no blockages, no limitations. 

The greatest lesson... Money, property, prestige, romance, or other material achievements can not help me find my truth pathway. 'Things' are simply accumulations of what I have picked up along the way as reminders of the experience. 

Affirmation for today's journey, "I know that SPirit is working with me, co-creating, with the Universe, to take to my soul's destiny. I trust and have faith.  I know that when I may feel most at a loss, that it is only temporarily, and necessary to rest... which will serve to set me up to further the journey. True North, will ensure that I will never be lost... even on a starless night when all seems dark.  Revel in the freedom, glory, and grace. 

Much love, Lori Lynn

Lightworkers Faith, Hope, and Prosperity

 

A brief beginning on 'lightworkers.' Sit for but a moment with your time and visualize. As you slow and calm your breathing; as your mind becomes clear and unbiased, gently allow yourself to visualize your family or close supporters living in the great continent of Africa. 

What do you see? Is this real? Thought up? Expectation? What is your perspective made up from? Do you see misery? Do you see freedom? Happiness? Joy? Sadness? Frustration? What do you see? 

Then ask yourself what it is that you WANT to see? 

Always. When we are in need of being challenged by the many random thoughts of what we have or what we don't have, what they have, that I do not, and how do I get from here to there? Do I have the 'it' factor? the skills? talent?  Do I really want that?.... 

I am being encouraged to step back and look through different eyes. Look through the eyes of beauty, and grace, of friendship, and love... see through the eyes of love and a sense of hopefulness. See through the eyes of VICTORY.  What challenges for me, may be the greatest of opportunity for another, to appreciate and learn... to bask in their own light, their success, their glory; to shine their light out onto the world. And what can we learn from one anthers journey?

I can choose to step back and see all of God's 'things' as beautiful, unique, glorious, and adventurous... see the full scope of my surroundings... and then surrender to the will and bask in the beauty of all that may be offered.

The full scope. and with that decisions. Believe.. there is just something about that word that leaves me lagging from afar. To Believe is to accept something as true; to feel sure of the truth. The 2nd definition is to hold something as an opinion, to think or suppose. I am going to say that it is within that context that leaves me lagging. To Believe, I feel, is to not think or suppose... but rather to hold as truth.  

Naturally... a voice yells "Get
out of your own way!"  I hear clearly... yet I do not fully understand. Or perhaps it's just me, unable to commit fully to faith... even though I have experienced plenty of naturally glowing moments. But this trust can also take me back to places where I am not sure that I want to re-enter or re-visit in my mind. But, it seems as though I must, in order to comprehend the full impact on my presence. 

The list: (yes, again) and The reminder: (without the guilt or shame). I begins as such, 

"I am a talented, strong, and successful being of God, the Divine, the Universe. Co-Creation." I am only as successful as I allow myself to be, and at this time, it seems, as far as I allow the limitations to take over.  And with that I wonder, how long can this doubting continue. The answer will always be, for as long as I allow it... with that, louder, "take the reigns and show them who is boss!" <3 

Stepping out on Faith, in full belief, is to know with every ounce of surety that my intention has been set out firmly, loud, and crystal clear. But the challenge remains, to access this quality, this sense of faith and clarity, with each breath that I take. 

I do also know that this is tied in with 'monetary reward,' and perhaps that phrasing is what keeps me stuck. While releasing the past, judgments, expectations, and limits, it's to do this whole and complete.... truly forgiving... asking for a full pardon. 

In linking this with a business start-up, to learn and to understand how to instill the necessary wealth-building qualities and principles that will allow me to be successful; to remove the blocks and chains. This is the only road to prosperity.... through empowerment. and the only way to empowerment is through love. 

Today's meditation will sift through the shame, blame, and guilt... to seek the accountability and my responsibility, and to make my way along this pathway... to a clear sense and longing of the love and vision that I so desire. 

Lots of work to manage myself through today. With love, always, Lori-Lynn

Right? or Left? are those the only choices? Relationships

Sometimes the thoughts in my mind when I awaken can be incredible overwhelming. So much so that I can catch myself feeling stuck between a rock and a hard place, literally... as in stuck between thoughts and ideas. What I am being made aware of this morning is that even though we feel that we may not see anything BUT black and white, suggesting that there are merely 2 choices, right or left, but in truth, the spectrum is grand, and colourful, and filled with great new ideas, grand new thoughts and delicious creations.... not just right. or left.The choices are endless. 

So what message does SPirit bring to me in this regard. Back to the truth, where else? To understand  that my own deepest being is trying to guide me; to show me which direction that I should take. Hold space and hear.  I can then feel that I am not fully trusting (as I visibly smile)... because I can see now that I was trusting in black and white, weighing options and different variables... when I can now clearly see that Spirit is the greatest director and always leads us back to home.... to colour and grandeur.  Guidance is the the stabilizing factor, where the height of our scales adjusts its sails. But with what? 

This one is so simple.... the balancing factor is a reminder, or an awareness; the Divine is
whispering and nudging me away from the drama. This can be in regards to both friendships and lovers... lovers and friends... reminds me of the song, "In my life," which my mind sings rather than speaks. Naturally.  Move forward, yes, yes. When we make a choice to turn away from, and move towards a higher, more loving quality born out of the fullness of each and every experience, there comes a broader sense of mental health... Peace. Love. Hope, and Kindness.

True love is only born from an unconditional relationship, not reliant upon expectations or demands. 

The cards that I pull to offer guidance to today's journey, are, well, quite confusing. and so I breathe and go inward and ask for assistance. That clearly is the idea I do believe. Front and centre of this is a question of my Soul's Mission, my Life's Work... is this the same. or different. Either way, right? or left? it is a reminder that our life's purpose need not be a tremendous challenge... but perhaps more so an opportunity brought forth from the many challenges faced throughout our existence... I know in my heart that when I am doing what I love to do... even the moments of struggle are much more joyful. There is a sense of calm rather than chaos. HOPE brings me to this space of Discovery. Discovering my Truth... what I am meant to do.  and to then DO that. 

Sounds simple enough right? or left? Just kidding. The message that follows is a journey to seek out what tools, gifts, talents, past major lessons and roadblocks that I have access to, ones that have the strength and courage to catapult my intentions out into great heights... to then draw from the well of hopes, wishes, dreams, and visions.... to set a full and direct intention that cannot be broken... Golden Dreams send up by Golden Threads... such a beautiful site. 

There goes my imagination... wild and true. We are all born with the blessing of creativity and imagination... use it! Use it to empower your thoughts and dreams... allowing the Universe to offer them back up... on a platter.... Real and True to Vision. 

The end of each day, should bring us to a place of gratitude, grace, and forgiveness. A Place where we store the lessons, with such a strong awareness that all of our choices are made from a perspective of survival AND the theory of Love. Everything comes from a place of love... a secure place of the Love within one self or a fear state of that love. Say I am sorry lots... when you screw up... always from the heart and always with the practice and intention of healing. Follow the gift of the Ho'opanono.  End each night's prayers with gratitude. 

This seems as though there is a very specific theme today... almost from a space of serenity... to keep the peace, with grace. Spirit is asking me to Re-direct myself. I clearly do not know what this means. ummmm... Get it. This goes back to my conversation with my therapist yesterday. My list. I believe that I talked briefly about this yesterday... but I know that it is about my growth into 2021. 

Birthdays, Anniversaries, New Years... these are all opportunities to reevaluate goals, redefining work, responsibilities, time to re-direct my thoughts, consciousness, personal goals, and professional satisfaction. My whole life has prepared me for this moment... and there is no time like the present. 

Much love and happiness today, as you discover, for yourself, what your true passion is. Then how to? Right or Left?  Just set your intention out into the Universe and be guided by that <3 

I've never been a victim

I've never been a victim. At least not through my eyes have I seen myself as a victim, of circumstances, events, challenges, of any kind. All experiences have served one single purpose. To take me on a journey to where it is that I am now... in this exact moment in time... and to further move me into the direction of my further choosing, of where I want to be. It's an accumulation of all that I have learned and discovered, tripped over, and walked through... all that I have accomplished to get me to right here. This 'dream' or vision is not anything new to me, it's been a lifelong 'dream,' so to speak. 

And so with that, I chose two cards... a Yin and a Yang... what balances the emotional stability of where I am in this exact moment. When the first message appeared, it created quite an array of negative fear-based emotions. It feels as though I am being forced to 'suppress' that it is that I so want to accomplish, which in turn feels unfair. In my mind, I have worked through so much to get to this space, it's almost that I have been believing that I have earned my way to here... so the rest should be a cake walk. Um... No so. 

The balance part of this energy is that of Trust. I am pretty certain that everybody saw that coming. Not me... I had to give it quite some thought. I can see that it is yet another opportunity to completely show that I trust in the direction; that I trust in the process. And. There is always a process. By not trusting in the process, then I am turning my back on all that I have supposedly learned... cause I would say that if I am not trusting, then I haven't learned much of anything. But I know that I have... so I am going to give this Trust thing a chance. 

:D :D :D

So what is my process from here. It's an exercise in Mental Awareness.... Mental sit-ups, so to speak... a re-training of the mental image, the narrative that I have lived by... to re-address and re-define who I am and what I stand for. Again, as I have been saying... it never left... it has always been in there, laying in wait. The thing about mental exercise is that it is really no different from physical exercises. There is sense of mental elasticity that comes into effect, all in time and with practice. Today's lesson is to replace EVERY negative thought, word, or deed, with two positive ones. It's, again, a promise to be mindful; so to improve the state of my mental health, my mind, back to its original state, minus the limitations and conditions place upon me... held in place, by me... my mental restrictive mind.

The Journey:

Listen.  It does seem as though much of society has stood by and not heard a word of what has transpired in our world for the past year. The message that I keep hearing is that it is time to fully open ourselves up to listening... and hearing... ALL of what is being said. LISTEN WITH THE INTENT OF UNDERSTANDING. Seems foreign doesn't it. Lots of this actually seems as though we have moved so far away from the skill, it's as though it never existed. What has gotten between the ears and the brain? Of course, the Ego. The greatest lesson that I can learn or choose to understand today is to, beginning in this moment, Stop listening in order to respond, but rather ListEN to understand the circumstances better. Whew.... Listening... one of the greatest skills in which one can master. It'll be quite the journey over the next week or so. 

Practice. Practice. Practice. Practice, this is the one way to transform.... with change comes a transformation of energies. Again, the importance of continually being mindful. Silence is golden... but only when we are listening to, hearing, and understanding, all of the other types of communication. Putting my listening skills into my awareness, as I explore, reach out, and form new commitments and relationships, will allow me to be transformed... by others. Transformation IS creation. 

Time and Time again, and so far this year, I have ended up pretty much inward with the same message... Be Your Best (for me, Be MY Best) always. This is mindful... as I uncover each layer of the boundaries or box of limitations that I have built up around me, I have begun to uncover the best of me. This IS my Golden Opportunity; to Unleash my best out into the world. Merely saying this sends a wave of gratitude throughout me (the chivers). I know that the stress and the challenges that I have faced and overcome. I also know that we all have. This is not to minimize mine or yours or anyone else's... we are all here to face and do with what we most are led to do. 

Right in this moment, I am being led to release and let go of the drawer where all of my hidden secrets or burdens have been neatly stashed away. In a separate drawer are the events leading up to many of these secrets and burdens. And in the third drawer, are the layers that I have applied and take out whenever I feel threatened or scared, or unloved, or not good worthy enough. Until I realized that the only love that is truly important is the love between myself and God. That's it. 

And so, it's time to put a lock on these drawers, but before closing the drawers, to visualize a loving, healing energy, along with a transformative golden energy, and to breathe it into the drawers and then shut and lock tightly... allowing the energies to do their thing... their magic. 

I realize just how important that it is recognize that I had been under stress for quite some time, and it's time to uncover and unleash my BEST by worrying less. Which brings me around to the suppression of emotions, or a holding back... and trust.  I am not a victim... but rather a victor <3 

Much love and kindness to all. Be Authentically You. always. Be mindful and loving. Lori-Lynn

 

 

Bygones be GONE, Belief, Faith, Create, and Recycle!

Always, always, where to begin. If or when we wake up with doubt or a feeling that we are just not quite 'there' yet, step back. (and not by throwing the covers over your head and pretending that it will all go away) Step back to breathe and to reminder of what is important. What will bring the most hope to my day. How can I change the outcome of my day, beginning with my first breath of the day? 

I do understand the telling within this card. By-gones... such a great word, we should probably use it more regularly... leave the past where it belongs, rather than piling upon it with new wounds and creations of the mind... say, so-long, be gone, bye!... Forgive and Release ("I am sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you") hand over heart, with a deep fulfilling breath... with love, blessings, and happiness to be transformed into beautiful, creative energy. Perhaps this is the energy that someone else is requiring to take a huge step forward in their own life... we can never know these things... but we can be more aware. 

Let Go of what you may be drudging along, or masking and Allow the Universe to do what it does best.... to heal. No judgment. No expectation in return. No conditions. Only to move forward whole. Whole. Proud. With Grace. 

The key factor in this, for me, is to understand and Believe in Myself. I suppose, as I write this, at least, and I am truly trying to rack my consciousness to gather as much information as possible, as I am back in my ego mind... I am not sure if I know what it truly means to believe in oneself. I am not sure if I ever did... or knew that it was important. or why. But belief leads to hope, dreams, and faith, which in turn leads to faith and trust, which leads to surrendering to a higher power that transmutes the fullness of our understanding and awareness into Self-Belief which the mirrors that energy and brings forth into fruition accordingly. 

It's the self limiting thoughts that are being begged to be made aware of. If you don't know what they are or even aware of their existence, although, we are typically aware that we are being held back. It's like walking around with cement boots, or a 100 pound sack tied to your waste. To be aware at a level or acute understanding, outside the ego mind, with an open mind, I can move into today and listen for or feel any 'pulling' of my heartstrings, any nudges, or gut feelings of insecurity or doubt... I can begin here... to recognize, sit with, hold, sooth, caress, love, bless, and release. I can do so that that I can feel the full power of who you I am at my core. 

This power has always been within me, I have discovered. Forever. We are all born with this... we are gifted it upon birth. The fullness of our power, the path to freedom is OURS. Choose today, to trust. When we are cleared (and this is why chakra and aura transformation is so important; it allows us to make a decision based on truth and faith, Zero Limits, No Conditions, or Pre-expectations. Faith that all will be. 

As we release and lay to rest what has so heavily burdened us, the world offers us so much more... More ideas and thoughts... all to choose from... all to decide which we can visualize and set our intentions upon. Just for today... breathe and enter the world of a child, innocent and a mind free to roam and dream. Don't burden yourself with the hows... or deadlines, or money... just envision and create. Set your intentions loud and clear! Set your inner child free to roam and dream today. 

The final message, may seem a little odd, so I do hope that I will get to that place by the end of my typing... Recycle your dollars.. Ohhhhhh.... such an amazing message. It is one of support. To look at how I support my community, individually and as a whole... to understand the cycle of gratitude; giving and receiving... the cycle of whole. Give from the heart... and don't be stingy... what they choose to do with what is being offered, is NOT up to you, your control, nor is it any of your business. Truly. Give with the intention that whatever they need MOST... they will be able to receive... and this may bring a smile to their face, or laughter to their lips, or a discovery that someone cares. This is a message to spend wisely... such in with the Divine Wisdom within your heart... Spend money within your community, the shop local... will improve HOW I live. Support begins in the home and then extends itself outwards to the community. Outstretch your arms today... to support and protect... to love one another <3 <3 <3 

Today's Affirmation is fitting;

When you call upon the love of God/the Divine/the Creator/ and exercise PURE INTENT, there are miracles.... Golden Bones

Much love, many blessings, support, and guidance, Lori-Lynn