Where from here & why

I believe that I may have come to a complete new awareness and perspective of my life and how this ties into both codependency and giving up, which from this viewpoint, is most likely do to lack of external support from those closest to me... or rather I should say, what I have perceived, up until this place in time, as a lack of support. 

The reality is that our perception is our current reality... which is why our reality can, will, and does change... it's all energy, and yes, energy is fluid and ever transforming. Each time our awareness changes, we begin to see everything so differently. So you see, this is the importance within the connection. Our perception changes as we download, experience, take on challenges, bring forth new adventures; each time we do so, it opens us up to a new understanding and opportunity... an advantage that allows us to look at the world through new eyes. 

In codependency, we talk about relationship imbalance.  Typically it comes into play where one person enables anothers addiction, irresponsibility, or, where I am concerned, underachievement. 

One of the most important core characteristics, is a reliance (usually to the breaking point) on another for approval, acceptance; even their sometimes messy or tainted sense of approval. It's a learned behaviour, and recognition is the key that unlocks a whole expanded way of thinking. 

For me, these roots run long and deep, so often feeling as thick and solid as a tree trunk. It began at such a young age, my toddler years, of trying fit in and figure out where I belonged, all the while trying so desperately to please my older sister. Yet, I had no idea how to. 

This came to light with such an awareness this evening as a friend and I were talking about a business idea and plan that we are working towards bringing into fruition. This is merely in the talking stage... a collaboration of ideas, visions, dreams, and, for me, finally a reconnection of hope. 

The hope that I had lost, what seemed, so very long ago. 

And there it was, that which had seemed lost, was actually inside of me all along; deeply hidden behind fear, guilt, and shame.What a jackpot of independent thoughts raged through me. 

That was when I finally understood, opening up my sensory perception like never before. Honestly, I wasn't even entirely certain what to make of it all, how to translate, recall, or integrate. With that I picked up my pen to outline and analyze, and scrutinize what I was being made aware of.

One of my past bosses, whom I have such respect for, once shared with me that her father instilled in her that the toughest challenges are our greatest opportunities for growth and to learn; and make no mistake, these challenges and what we choose to learn from them, will be put to good use at some point in our lives.  I say... always for the best... to shine as the great beacon of light that we are all meant to be.  

I am not sure where it leaves me, but I am certainly up to task on this one. A thesis on this could have an astoromical impact on our teaching and learning styles... but, in this moment, and more so, what does the wholeness of the equation reveal? 

On a level of Mental Health, this in itself would also be its own brilliant thesis to set the bar to the base line of understanding one another. 

The question that keeps going around and around and around in my head is, can this mindset be transformed into a positive, insightful, and inspirational overtone? What would it take to do this? 

My first response is codependency. If this is learned behavior and left to be reinforced in the school years,  unless some interference is run, then being dependent upon another for our own happiness, health, and well-being is imminent. 

A side question becomes, who is to blame and at what cost? As with any addiction, the unseen or hidden costs usually permeate their way to create extensive internal and external damage. 

Just first thoughts... perhaps to bring me closer to home, my core, the love of self. 

What truly makes you happy?  What could you do today that would bring happiness to your day? Who or what does it serve? 

Have an amazing evening. Shine your light and laughter wherever you go. Just be you... at your core... that is where hope resides. Much love, Lori-Lynn

To the NeXt step?

As I hunker down for the impending snow blizzard that may or may not happen, it allows me to reflect and to ask myself the important questions to begin my daily reflection ;) (these are examples of question in which I propose to clients). 

What is my greatest ideal for myself today? And with this I ponder. My greatest ideal is to be a better version of myself; to be kind, consideration, non-judgemental, generous, and loving. My greatest ideal is to release the stresses and worries of yesterday, or the days & years gone past. To therefore begin here. Always in a space of Zero Limits. 

If I begin anew and refreshed, without the blockages that bind, I find that my inner sub-conscious mind opens up to allow for  the creation of something new.  If I close my eyes, where can I see myself in one year? When I take a moment to hold space for my inner guidance to flow, I allow a mulitude of thoughts and ideas to just come and go around and within me. I can then pick and choose which ideas and thoughts will be planted and transformed into fruition. Manifestation; creation of that which we truly want deeply within. 

The best manner in which we can reflect upon this, is to sit with the child within, that creative genius that moved about so freely no so long ago, with few limitations; no deadlines, no burdens; with only a passion that was authentic, aspiring, and enjoyable. Allow that child within play in your mind today; creating a vision, or many visions and desires. Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket. Today is the rainy day in which you hae been waiting for. All the rest of the day to be on hold as you create a space of mental well being. 

The 2nd question to ask myself, is "In THIS moment, what would make me happy?  My response, tday, is to release the chains within the confinds of my own mind; to open and expand, to release all of the stress that I can sometimes walk directly into no matter which way I turn. It often creates a domino effect; which is why the message returns as an opportuity. Walk away... keep the motivation forward. An incredible amount of precious energy is wasted worrying. Sit back and listen to your favourite music to transform your mindset. Just groove :D to the beat and blessings of the music. Set your mind free on the flow of the melody. 

Releasing and reviewing, without being overly analytical takes me on a journey that broadens my vantage point and taps into my true wealth and prosperity. I have spend much time aligning my thoughts, dreams, and visions with the Universe to know exactly what true prosperity mean, to me.  It will mean something different to everyone. But we all have the ability to set our own values, dreams, and goals. So in this moment, I ask, "What would make me really happy?"

My response would be to attune and align with my true gifts, talents, and passions, and to be graced with the ability to create a prosperous lifestyle from these gifts. To also algin with like-minded friends and souls.  For me, service is motivation; so to see clearly that I may be required to shift my focus on giving; without expectation orcondition... outside of the ego in order to fully tap into my true, unlimited wealth. 

Affirmation, "There is always enough, more than enough and the Universe will always have my back... it I trust... whole and complete..."

It's a one day at a time adjustment in my thought process. Trust. When I thought that Temperance was such a challenging proess.... holy hannah... <3 <3 <3  My greatest ideal for today... to bring me one step closer. 

Much Love, Light, Happpiness, and Prosperity,  Golden Bones.  Lori-Lynn

Letting Go & Where do I go from here?

Today I begin my post by going completely inward. This has taken so many years of practice; to allow the ego and consciousness to step aside and to be still as I hold the space of this moment. 

                  (image by ipaint... paint by numbers)

Connecting with the Divine SPirit is amplified when we just sit in our own breath and move futher and further away from our physical presence. And then, suddenly, as if my magic, there it is. A vision. A quest. An opportunity. A soft, sweet, loving and compassionate guide comes forth. 

Letting Go and Healing or Healing and Letting Go.  For me the greatest fear is being alone, but it's not as most would think. As a child who saw, felt, and heard spirit from a very young age, being alone frightened me.  I understand now so much more as I have learned to just allow and trust in Spirit. But it was a journey that took me to the ends of the mind until I could finally expand my awareness and consciousness. 

Meditation and Aloneness were the places that I learned to connect with past loved ones, the Divine Spirit, and with the Universe.  Even though it was a natural part of my daily experience, but until I fully allowed for the connection, I was not experiencing the joy, love, and happiness that I deserved.  I didn't know how; although I would say that this is mostly because I wanted to be accepted and liked... all children do; but in being misunderstood or set apart creates a bit of a chaos within. 

I knew things that I didn't even know that I knew.  What I did know is that it often left me feeling alone and sometimes rejected. I actually had a friend when I was about 11 that said to me, "I can't hang around with you right now because you know things that I have never told you and that scares me." As I got older, it became more of a game. A dear friend of mine loved to call me at 3:30 and ask me questions while in the sonomobolistic state. (To be honest, I enjoyed this. I still do. It is my favourite state of 'mind.')

That was my beginning until I came face to face with a new reality.  What I learned and came to terms with was that when loved ones pass, they leave a part of themselves in our heartspace and it's this heartspace, connected to my heartspace that allows for a clear and open connection. This is the space where all the wisdom and messages that are felt, seen, and heard are. I take no credit, except for the work that I have put in; it's a gift from the Divine Spirit; from God.  It's really no different than any other gifts and talents in which we come into this lifetime with. 

Spirit wants to connect. I have learned to create that space that brings forth their energy. That space is love. 

Today, Spirit is sending me a message of Forgiveness and Learning. to know that each time I release that which does not matter, it opens us up to new connections, learning, and teachings.  Put in and make the effort. That is the initial part of the process. 

I am in a space where it is necessary to let go in order to trust; and so I hold space this trust. The first message is to understand that the Universe will make a pathway and will show me where my next right move is, but only if I trust. Like fear and faith, letting go and trust go hand in hand.  But it's the letting go completely that is causing me angst. So then, I must learn to clear my space completely, so that my mind is fully algined and connected. Perhaps its this space of emptiness that is necessary for the journey. 

The most important and powerful message that Spirit is saying to me, is to STOP! trying to make sense of everything single, solitary, and frivilous thing. Trust that the Universe is setting up blockages, so that I will STOP running into them, fighting with them, and allowing me to release and fully let go. 

This is a sense of honouring who I am; honouring my self; both my human and soul's journey.  Honouring oneself can have so many interpretations. In this manner I am being asked to be completely open with my gifts. This begins by empowering my mind, and to continue to be cognative of the thoughts and challenges throughout each moment of the day. Take every opportunity to love myself; to respect and honour my talents, visions, and gifts. 

So really there is nothing to make sense of. There is no forgetting or pushing against... just be open and TRUST that in letting go, something new and better is being allowed the opportunity to come forth and manifest itself. 

"Stop driving with the brakes on!" they say. "And by constantly looking in the rear view mirror, you are absolutley either not going to get anywhere or you are going to crash!" 

My opportunity is to move away from the limiting thoughts, the thoughts that stay stuck in my head; the fears, the dissapointments, the self-doubt, self-pity, and move towards a new process of TRUSTING.  Asking only for that to transpire which serves my highest, unlimiting sights, and then BE. Move along. Take a moment to allow the Universe to catch up with all of my requests, which is why it is necessary to let go of that which inhibits my growth and movement forward. 

What I know most of all is that God is good, that Spirit has each of our backs, and that we have all come into this place and time to learn something very important for our own Spiritual Journey.  

Now back to Letting Go and Trust.  Much love and happiness throughout your day. <3 Lori-Lynn