The Disconnect... and Yet Again...

Truth is, for me, my insight and perspective... the further that we move into COVID, the further that I see and feel that we move away from one another.

The Disconnect.

Truth is, for me, my insight and perspective... I believe that as
we move futher into this pandemic, that we, as a human race, are moving further and further away from what it was meant to teach us.

Compassion and Unity.

We, that being near and far, I feel, have become such a disconnected society. It saddens me such on a level that so many cannot understand, and yet I know that so many do. Those are my people. I see good people every day, who have become helpless, or homeless; and yet, it seems few care. There are few places to turn and judgment in return for their struggles. I do what I can, when I can, and with whom I can, as so many who remain connected and diligent do, and yet, the problems are surmounting higher and higher. There seems no relief from the disconnect. It becomes greater and greater as we become further and futher apart... disconnected.

Robots pinning one against the other, this side against that, often over baseless 'reality' and misguided information, money, fame, sex, drugs, and rock n' roll... Just kidding. But serious. Mine, Yours, and no longer an Ours. The existence of Unity draws us further and further apart; so far apart that we often don't even see the person in front of us.

Truth is, for me, my insight and perspective... we are all connected; we are all unified... by one God, or greater power, however you see it, feel it, or have it. We are each and every one of us, connected. Each of us sees within ourselves what we express to one another.

There is a deeper meaning that we, as a society, just don't want to face. How can that man (or woman) who is begging for money on the street, or rummaging through trash along their way, just to survive, having anything to do with ME? you might ask. And the opposite is true. He/She who is living grand and exciting lifestyle, how can they relate to ME? I suppose that is merely my level of thinking, or awareness. Yes, a polyanna viewpoint. I get it. And yet I feel it. So deeply. A feeling that is so deep that truly connects me to each and every person that I come into contact with. I feel it on a level that draws me in and makes to take a longer look at my own being. One that allows me to understand myself better; my pain, my trauma, my own disconnect that moves me forward with a greater connection of love, first, for myself, and offer unto another.

We can only love another with as much love as we have within ourselves.

It may seem like my battle alone, but as I see it, it's all of ours. It affects each of us differently, as we all respond and react in a manner that reflects our own journey. Connected through that same secure state or fear state of love within ourselves, aligned with that same higher power or oneness that moves through all of us; that connects us and unifies us.

And yet again, I go toe to toe, heel to heel, heart to heart, soul to soul... with a world that often does not understand my ponderings, my fascination with my own seekings, and I ask, "What am I yet again, to learn, to understand, to align with?

This takes me back to my psychology professor who I so often challenged the theory that "nobody can make you feel any such way, only you are accountable to your feelings and observations." I once stated that I understood the theory, yet now I once again, challenge it, for I see it through new lenses. As I pay closer attention to my surroundings, I can feel a greater connectedness, a greater appreciation for each experience and interaction. I can fully appreciate, with a renewed compassion and empathy for the journey of another, our alignment, and our connection to harmony. Balance.

With this new awareness, I strive to live in this present moment and I offer this gift to those I connect with, allowing for a non judgmental interaction, reaction, and response. And as I do so, I release my worries and pain into the past, as I do theirs. I move forward with the connectedness choosing to focus on the most important matters... that being human interaction and love. I release the worries and allow my life to be whole again.

As I move forward, I pledge to refrain from overthinking, seeing that this only takes away the power of my wholeness, leaving room for fear and distrust. I move back into a state of self love and intuition, trusting in the wholeness of my feelings in that state of love; knowing that the times that I feel myself moving into a state of fear or lack of, I can close my eyes, breathe in deeply and replace these feelings with kinder, gentler thoughts that I choose to define who I am. I then nurture these feelings with self care and a gentle love. All knowing that there is only love, and this love begins within.

Beginning today, this moment... I reward myself with the gift that it is a great day to stop doing the things that keep me from feeling my very best and believing that I am unworthy, leaving only goodness and love to enter into my existence of a greater connectedness. I move away from the disconnect, because that is what I choose.

How does this relate? Well, that's for each and every one of us to attune and connect. God Bless. There but for the Grace of God Go I. And Yet Again...