the Road to Happy~Ness Day 31

So I awoke this morning feeling like a brand new person!♡! Alive I might say, and for the first time in a very long time.

I had watched something on television this morning that reminded me of all the hopes and dreams that I once had… you know… the ones that haven’t worked yet for me.  In that moment, I realized that I still wanted those dreams♡ But it was more than that… it was the feeling. I wanted that feeling. I was happy to have that feeling once again. It does seem so much to be a part of who I am.  Happiness does feel good. Perhaps in some way I would say that it feels complete and it feels calm or serene.

Until I go to the place of how.

So, I must learn to find my Happy-Ness not in the how or when, but in only the destination and feeling.  I am curious so I continue on and then ask myself what is the word that brings that feeling of Happiness. The word is accomplishment. And I sit in this word.  Accomplishment. of my goals, dreams, ideas, of my being.  Attaining my goals♡ worthy & deserving that I am living the life of our dreams♡ …means that I have been successful. Successful that I have Accomplished what I most desire.  Successful that my hard work has paid off♡ Knowing that I have worked hard♡

I AM grateful. for all that I have learned. for all that I have. for all that I am. But I see that much of my sadness came or comes from that place of non-deserving. Awareness. Compasssion. Hope. & Glory.

And, of course, Creativity.  To see the dream, to feel it, is one thing, but to Create it, is a whole new level that I want to attain, knowing also that ‘the experience of Creativity is an entry into the mysterious.’ OSHO ‘Technique, expertise, and knowledge are just tools. The key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things.‘  To abandon myself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things♡ learning to become possessed by the creative force that drives me; trusting that each stroke leads to greater and greater beauty… to the life of my dreams.

I understand that to fuel my own creativity is to align with the Divine, one with Spirit, one with the Universe, one with all. Bringing to light the life that I so want to achieve; dreams that I want to succeed in.

So today, it’s to find MY own creativity in all that I do♡ and to do so lovingly, joyfully, and fully. If it gives me makes me feel alive, it is Spiritual, Creative, and Divine. It is Accomplished. When I saw this photo that I created awhile back I saw a person holding the butterfly in the two palms of their  hands. All the sudden, they decided to Let Go. To release the butterfly; to allow it to discover and explore.  There was a profound Healingwithin this vision. True greatness begins with our Visions within.

Healing♡ the wisdom is to know that during times of our greatest sorrows that we have the potential to bring forth the greatest transformation♡ This takes me back to yesterday. and the day before. and to last year. and then back to here, today. ‘Release the butterfly.’ Allow the Butterfly to experience the beauty and depth of his inner most desires; the air upon his wings, the sweetness from the nectar, intensity of the colors all around. This is the true power of the healing; and the ‘trance’ ~formation that I am feeling deep within today.

Today, creatively, I will explore the complexities and profundities within my mind and live to experience all that I can. I will experience all that I am. And all of the Strength that is required to Build & Create… to Be♡ One With My Dreams & Visions that come along with this.

ENLIGHTENMENT♡

Do not fear to enter into this place♡ as from this place comes Greatness♡ Compassion, kindness, forgiveness, self love, & Healing♡ Bringing up from the depths of my heart & soul… my passions, to create, and to live the life that I so desire.

the Road to Happy-Ness/ Day 30

Some days are tough; when I just cannot seem to figure 'things' out, especially the why's and how to's. 

I began my day as usual, with my prayers and alignment. It's cold out. really really cold. I finally made my way from my bed and seek to discover my gifts for today. I look out into the world, or at least what I can see of the world from right here and what strikes me most is that even though social media might appear to bring us closer together, it often seems that it drives a stake through our ability to see perspective. A certain clarity has gone AWOL. 

There is a lot of talking going on, but little listening, and the masses are listening blindly, or so it does seem. Rather than listening to our sensibility, with our hearts, and an open mind, we are choosing the easy way~ detachment. If they say it, then we don't have to be accountable, because in the end, rather than us take responsibility for our laziness, we can blame it on 'them.'  

What I think is happening is that so many are hanging onto that which is based in fear. How has society brought us to this place?  Why does it seem to be such the easier choice?  I'm just not sure as it makes such little sense to me.

Which has brought me to this place.... what do I see when I look at another? at a situation? a circumstance? Am I able to be accountable for my decisions? So I choose to look again, with a new perspective; one that is based in the heart, without ego or judgement. We really have forgotten that. Or it seems that we have. 

We have learned to pre-construct images in our minds, ones that covers the real face of the person that we are facing. Funny, we don't even know where this is based.  or Rather, sad.  All too often lately we get caught up in projecting a story that we are making up, putting our twist into the circumstance or situation, the people and what we want to see or experience. We forget to step back and really, truly see what is in front of us, what we are facing, who we are facing. I think sometimes, those around us just become objects. We forget to be fully aware and conscious; of our expectations, desires, and judgments... and then we 'push' them onto those around us. 

Is this because so many of us feel truly unheard?  Perhaps. And then we see what, of late, has gotten us heard. And the answer is not good. So I ask myself again, how did this happen and how do I push past this to find, to discover my, our, happiness. 

Projection~ a cloud that prevents us from seeing reality as it is; from starting afresh, as each situation, experience, meeting, or greeeting should be. The way out of this is to understand consciously, really understand, with an openness, and to experience life before me as a continual challenge (opportunity)... to bring life to any and all experiences. To force ourselves to feel our pre-judgment; to listen and see what the mind has already told us about the experience, and then clear that.  Poof~Gone~ To then Turn it Around. 

How much of what I see in others, in truth, belong to them? Is my vision based on a clean slate, past experiences, pre-determined decisions? Is my vision clouded by what others have told me or experiences? Why am I feeling this way? 

THAT, is the difference between fear and intuition. We have allowed fear to rule. And we know that fear is so very dysfunctional; but its to see outside of that.  Fear creeps up and halt us. It's not based on fact, at all. It's based on the past, projection, and the unknown and we so often allow it to stop us in our tracks. Because of this we forget to ask it what it wants and what we are afraid of.  We close our minds. But deep down, we do know that with an open mind, our fear will talk to us and it will tell us where it is based. We can then base our perspective, opinion, and decision on this.

Fear lacks accountability. It's become the reason, the judgement, the perspective, the purpose, and the projection.  

So many thoughts today on projection and pre-judgement, illusion, and delusion. Simplicity speaking... When you are in love, the person before you can do little wrong in your eyes. Right? Pretty much. The opposite of love, in hate is true... when you hate someone, everything about that person before you is ugly and wrong. What we forget to to look at the individuality, the circumstances or experience before us. We accept what was because it takes less effort.  

Perhaps today I am being asked to look differently at something or someone, to see things in a new light. Or perhaps I am being asked to re-look at everything. The only way to reach the truth is to be present; right here, in the immediate, in my OWN eyes, and see what lay before me.  To discover my happiness today, is to discover the truth within this statement; within my awareness, outside of the ego mind and within the sub-consciousness. As so I will spend the day doing so. I will search for the happy in all, even if the happy appears sad, to see the happy within that. 

I know that deep down I am trying to understand what I want and how to get there, all the while flogged with the unpossibility of it all.  Can I get there? Why not yet? Is it truly possible? Do I really want this? and How do I get there? Where can I see my errors? and finally... Am I allowing a projection of another to cloud what I am able to truly see?

a change is necessary to bring forth the greatest of changes ~Thunderbolt~ extreme change, a most needed change, life~changing opportunity, is before me and perhaps I have not seen it or choose not to see it. Time to open my eyes fully and see.

Just as life brought forth the change that took me to here, this place... the same can take place, in an instant, to change in a re~newed directions. I do Know this.  

A forced hand, an unexpected happening, not because I asked for it, but because I had no choice. To then look back with fresh eyes & clarity today and find that there is always a choice.  To see that I still have a choice and always will.  To see that the choice may be how did I choose to perceive, see, and experience what was before me. Each decision before me. To see then what is stopping me and what is moving me forward. Big decisions. Big choices.  And this is where the Happy is found. 

the Road to Happy-Ness/ Day 28

I had an incredible weekend. Truth be told. I didn't want to go. I wished to stay snuggled by the woodstove and be still within my thoughts; my favorite place to be... connected to Spirit♡

Friday night I met with a good friend for a reading. What transpired was so unexpected. That's the thing. Spirit presents to me; facilitates that which my client most needs to work through and understand. So often it comes from 'left field'. That is the gift. Happiness and a big breath♡ It also set the tone for a weekend of insightful awareness.

On Saturday I channeled many astounding readings at our local 'Healing Connections Festival'. My readings are often intertwined with fun and on that day it came with an unexpected twist. Following a quick break, I briefly stopped by another presentation table, a couple who were showcasing their Spiritual Meeting Place. While I was there, Spirit presented herself. I learned that a woman from their Meeting Place had recently passed away and, in fact, today was her funeral. The words came quickly and suddenly I blurted out, 'YOU need to be at the funeral. Did you go, are you going?' All I knew was that it was clear that they (specifically the woman behind the desk) needed to be at the funeral for some reason. When my conscious mind came to, it then hit me that they couldn't go because they were at the festival the entire day. Darn. I wondered back to my space and continued to present readings. A little while later I glanced up and whoa! The lady and gentleman had packed up and left! hun! THIS, makes me happy. The fact that they trusted in Spirit's guidance.

The rest of the day was much the same, one intense and insightful reading after another. I feel so incredibly blessed that Spirit allows me to do this. Still it blows me away. Where do these messages come from. Can you always trust the messages. Yes. They are from the Divine Spirit, whoever that is to you♡ and I do trust in Spirit.

After my day at the festival, I went with my best friend and mom out for a quick wind down of beer and nachos, followed by popcorn and a movie with my sisters, niece and mom! This is so incredibly grounding, remembering that who I am at my core and what is most important to me. There is absolutely no chance at feeling 'special' because we are grounded in love and not ego.

Yesterday I had a wonderful conversation with another good friend. We talked much about Spirituality and how some see it; perhaps better said, how we perceive others to see it. There are times when it feels from others that being 'Spiritual' means that we are striving to be 'perfect.' Perfect in terms that we don't do anything wrong or make mistakes, that we don't have fun, or drink, or get angry. But we do... all of these things. For me, being Spiritual means that I understand that I am on here, in this moment, in this body & mind, on a Journey of the Soul. And this Journey comes with many a challenge. And I know & understand that this is the path that I, my soul, chose♡

So, with that, what's my word for today♡ the first most important word is Ordinariness. understanding that whatever, whenever, in whatsoever situation, that I am whole, in every moment, and to allow all of the 'extraordinary' moment to become ordinary, with enjoyment, and fully living in each moment. That's what I mean when I spend time with my closest friends & family... they only allow for me, to be me. Nothing more, nothing less. Authentic & whole.

And there is such a sense of Harmony within this as I begin my days journey with first my alignment with Spirit followed by my chants of consciousness. Meditation is a place of resting in the heart, in tune with the natural rhythms of my own inner silence, always to make its way to the 3rd eye, the inner knowing of my path & journey; the essence & intelligence of who I am. In this place, I know that we can all reach this space. That's the ordinariness of it. Quiet the mind, open the heart, and sit still , discovering that peace and harmony is within; and that there is peace and harmony within every situation & challenge, outside of the ego.