the Road of Happy~ness/ Day 22

Ego~ yes♡ the conscious mind, always thinking, weighing, deciding, choosing; often troubled. In all honesty, the influence that we allow doubt is really ridiculous. It's often seen through the eyes of others; always through the eyes of fear. 

So today I look for happiness outside of the ego, above the head and beyond the stars. I move into a space of emptiness. I choose to be a servant of my heart, rather than my thoughts; to see with a clarity that is crystal clear, and rooted in a deep stillness that lay at the very core of my being. 

I just completed a past life self~hypnosis, so I am a bit exhausted, perhaps not exhausted, but rather contented without a need to be anywhere but right here.  I am in a space of just being; grounded to the earth and connected to the Divine Wisdom available to All, searching outside the parameters of the conscious mind and in harmony with the very pulse of life.

This is good. I have recently asked for an understanding on the balance of the soul's lessons & journey with the (my) human existence.  There are times when it seems that no balance can be obtained, and sometimes it feels as if I am living as two separate beings; a human being & a soul's journey being. This is where much of my challenge begins. 

But somehow in this moment, I learned that the balance lay in the presence; ever turning over a new beginning. This is MY journey and allowing it to be compared, analyzed, or criticized through the eyes or life of another, is, well, not only silly, but also tiring. And for me today, to see that this is where the happiness is found. To see the 2 parts as one, unified, whole, and to know that this is what's been chosen & challenged.

When we look out into the world and judge another, we have to ask to what standards are we judging?  I can say it a million times... we are all living, breathing, working through different lessons. I know in my heart that there are some souls here, on earth, that have been asked to do some pretty terrible things, but if you can look on a really grand-scale view and see what is truly happening, our perspective can then changes. Again, the awareness is that we, none of us, and even ourselves included, do not know anyone else's plan or lessons of this lifetime. 

There is still much that I do not understand, but there is much more than I do. Much more and it is all coming to the surface at this time, causing such confusion as to its complex understanding. It can be very challenging to sort it all out outside the ego. Perhaps the understanding is simpler than thought. Break it down. Breathe it out. Sit with it in silence. 

So, for today, I'm and short and sweet, consciously mindful, yet there are no ramblings of the thoughts, just an allowance. Thoughts in, Thoughts out; Detached, never holding onto. There. Yes, there, is happiness today♡ 

My Journey of Happy-Ness/Day 21

I began to understand the clarity in the early morning.  Happiness is not found in believing or living with only the good things or experiences, but rather in the Balance♡ and the Harmony. 

TimberWolf is the Alpha, the knowing, with confidence; he is the path finder. A Messenger of new ideas, always returning to deliver teachings, not holding onto, but experiencing & sharing.

Meditation can lead me to the place; knowing that the experience of resting is not something that can be forced, but rather a 'settling within,' or a 'letting go' of clinging to experiences; the allowance of all experiences.

Meditation should come naturally, and I can see how, now, that we as a society have lost the importance of the practice. Meditation should be as natural as saying ones prayers or brushing ones teach; and as we come back to the practice of meditation, we must re~train our brains to stop. We then learn to grow more and more in tune with the rhythms of our own inner silence. 

Back to the Silence. Back to the Peace. Back to the Harmony. To go back to the sweetness and delicacy of each experience; emerging in the heart. 'To emerge from the heart and making an arc towards the third eye reflect in not only the intelligence, but the playfulness & Harmony as we move into the world from there.'

I am learning to not be so hard on myself, as many are; to consciously not allow myself to be my enemy, but rather a friend. To be softer and kinder to myself, where an inexpressible joy awaits. It's where is always was, deep with my sou, deep within my heart.

Harmony lends its grace to Happiness when we consciously practice being still in meditation, away from the ego and into the Heart, knowing that when our Hearts Desires are aligned with our Souls Purpose, Harmony will always prevail.  Knowing that what will be; will always be. 

'To be simple is arduous, because to be simple costs everything that you have. You have to lose all to be simple. That's why people have chosen to be complex and they have forgotten how to be simple.' OSHO

What a great lesson in understanding this! the Glory comes from the Grace & the Allowance to risk it all.  Knowing that a simple Heart sings with God in deep Harmony. 

My Journey of Happy-Ness/Day 20

So, this is where I landed today♡ Well, I suppose that I landed here yesterday, and it's true, I did. I do believe that it derived itself straight out of my dreams. And I do love when I dream; again last night another bazaar cycle of events. I dreamt of the most beautiful Timber Wolf... and she had pups just as beautiful. She ran off to chase a squirrel, and I remember thinking to myself, 'Why would she chase a squirrel, when she can go after something much bigger?' ....And it hit me. Never underestimate what you can go after, never, ever. 

And this is what makes me HAPPIEST! Alchemy♡ why? not sure... always has... it EXCITES me! ha!

Alchemy♡ inexplicable or mysterious transmuting. Transmuting; to change, alter, adapt, or transform; in form, appearance, or nature; and especially to a higher form.. Alchemy is a complex subject with many different interconnected aspects; but for me, the words 'Human Alchemy' came into play.  In its highest form, 'the Perfection in the Union of the Human Body and Soul.'

I do know how my thoughts led me to this place. The exact word was PERFECT, and understanding its challenge to so many. It begins with understanding the we are all ONE. What this means is that we are all made from the Highest of Energies, the God-Energy. I have always pictured this as God's hands (energy) connected to each one of us; connecting us all.  At the other end of the scale, in this regard, came in the understanding and awareness that we are all perfect, AS IS. That meaning, that for each of us, we are as perfect as our soul lessons need us to be. Which is why we are always perfect, in every moment. And also why it is difficult for us to teach others our lessons; because they are OUR lessons, and not necessary for them to learn.  Even when we believe that is where we want to be. Or for us to learn from another's experiences.  We ALL have different soul lessons. We can SHARE experiences and lessons, but we cannot live another's lessons, nor can another live our lessons.  As I write this, I understand and 'see' how difficult it is to translate the words from my head down to my fingertips to write. So, I will have to explore it more to 'grasp' a better, perhaps a more literary understanding.

Which takes me to my word today, the Fool. Open to, and the allowance of ALL experiences. 'Moment to moment, and with each step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust.' Harmony surrounds him, adventures await, he is supported by the Universe as he takes his jump into the unknown, along the river of life.

The Fool carries the lesson of the Ultimate in Trust. NO matter What, and Against ALL, to Trust♡ a Trust so pure that nothing can corrupt it. And with this, I do know what I must do, allow. Whatever experience comes my way... I must allow it to happen, accept it, and then... let it go, dropping it, clearing my mind, continuously, to always be in the PRESENT, here, NOW, renewed in each experience, never allowing a past experience to tarnish in any way. 

To learn yet another of life's greatest lessons, that which is truly mine, cannot be bought, robbed, sold, or stolen. blessed be and an amazing experience is on its way! 

My Journey of Happiness/Day 19

The Yin and the Yang♡ the politics within♡ Peace, Love, Harmony, & a Balance of the Lessons♡ the melthing of the two.

I am now seeing that there are two sides to us, each of us, that pull against the other. Our 'soul' side, that is true and pure, and knows where it most needs to be, and our 'human, ego' side that is here to experience & learn so that our soul may develop. It's through this awareness that I slowly began to understand the tug. The one side, knows, really knows what it wants; it even knows the answers, but the human/ego, living side, steps in and begins to feel and see the world around him; and it can feel past, present, and wants into the future... and this is where I see now that so many gets 'stuck.'

And it is with this awareness that brings me a deep happiness within today♡ a breath of the new, an Integration of the two, the fusion of the opposites; an allowance of the two to work together; creating a unified whole, 'each turning endlessly one into the other,' accepting both as one. 'Each containing in its deepest core the seed of the opposite.'

'The Eagle and the Swan are both beings of flight & majesty. Yet the Eagle is the embodiment of greatness, power, and aloneness; always confident, while the Swan is the embodiment of space and purity; diving upon and within the elements of emotion, content and compete within her purity, perfection & beauty'

Happiness for me today, is the clarity in which this brings; for this has been one of my greatest struggles. Each day I awaken with hope and expectation; a feeling of aliveness, and then often throughout the day, life happens, and with it a struggle within; creating this inner conflict. I know. But can I be, always. And the answer is, 'Yes,' you can; both as one, united.

So I begin the day looking back at my many experiences to find the balance; but as I do so, I want to see them differently. I want to now seeing each experience as the lesson, acknowledging the gift within each lesson. A sudden and powerful shift in perspective♡ Truly understanding that life delivers what is necessary for my Spiritual Growth... again and again and again... until I am finally able to 'see' what it is  that I most need to understand, right down to my bones. This message sent tingles running throughout my being.  My eyes are opened. Understanding,

knowing, that it's time to move on. I get it♡

The key in this awareness is to first release the blame, of both self and others; and to acknowledge a powerful accountability & ownership of the lesson. Experiences are put in front of us to learn from; and when the same thing happens over and over again and & the answer eludes our vision, it's time to look through different eyes; to come out of the darkness and enter into the light. The answer may not be that you are choosing the wrong person, or that you manage to end up with one difficult boss after another, or you continually sabotage friendships or relationships, etc. etc.... any area that you may be feeling stuck or blocked. 

Suddenly, I see that when I look at each experiences, as one and not many, with the blinders off, and the ego detached; that there it is! An understanding and a gift..

Although I am not responsible, there is an accountability♡ a unity.

I can own and hold this discover this down to my Core♡ to let myself off the hook. I am hardest on myself. I know this. Perhaps this is a major lesson in my lifetime. I do know and accept that all lessons assist us in our Souls Journey.  The enemy is not the Ego; but rather an acceptance of the ego & the soul, in the face of circumstances, situations, and experiences. And I know that all that I accomplish settles deep within my being.

Today I seek to unify the separation of God and Self. Today's breakthrough is at a Soul's Level♡ it is grand and it is wonderful♡ God Is and I Am♡

♡Today, I settle into the integration, the balance, the embodiment of both♡ the Eagle & the Swan; symbolic of self-creation and new life; symbolic of the union; the Alcemy♡

My Journey of Happy-Ness/ Day 18

Connection & Celebration♡ for all that has been lived and learned. for that that is to be lived and learned in the future... but for today. Just Be. 

Today's lesson♡ that the celebration need not depend on outside circumstances. To truly understand that a true celebration arise from a deepness & joyfulness within. It spills an overflow of song, and dance, laughter, gratitude, and even tears of joy. This for me has been a huge lesson. It was the way that I was, that I used to be. And then it all changed. I began to allow outside influences affect my inner place. That place is sacred. 

I understand this now. I can feel it. We don't have to be a certain way unless it is actually honest & true to our self, just because someone wants us to, or thinks that's the way we should be or feel, or because that's the way they feel. We don't. Ever♡

I can allow the acceptance of this & feel then the movement of the moment.  I can actually feel a 'becoming;' becoming more and more available to the joys and opportunities that are here, and with my heart opened wide; to celebrate life♡ This is a joyfulness of the heart; within the heart, that touches the hearts of others, and if it doesn't, or can't, then that's okay. One day, they too, will be open to share in the celebration.. of Life. 

The true party is in your Heart. In my Heart♡ 

I have learned so very much today,  I have been open to the lessons, I have been open to the learning. The forever student. Last night I had the craziest of dreams! Not that they made any sense, but they sure were fun! In the end, I was invited to a 'Kardashian' wedding. I tried to describe it to my husband and it didn't work out so well. Funny how our dreams make sense while we are in them. There was so  much going on with this one! crazy and exciting! Perhaps that's why I woke up in a Celebratory mood! Ha! 

Back to the lessons... being open to them, often brings them back to the current, often discovering how one area in my life can be reflective and perhaps solve another area in my life. Same lesson; different circumstance.  That's how today was. I am having some difficulties with my worker, really struggling with the next steps forward. I do know what the main issues are, but even knowing these doesn't always move us forward.  Time to allow for life to present a solution. No need to yell or squander, push or pull. Merely ask and allow. In the meantime, celebrate! haha!

After work, I took my dog for a run. As soon as he received permission to go off and explore... he did exactly that... and then wouldn't come back. Each time he got close to me, I'd call him or entice him over, and off he'd go again. Then it hit me... it wasn't the game to him... what I had to learn was that he would come when he was ready to come. In the meantime, he wanted to make certain that I was still within ear or eyeshot. So I let him be and it wasn't long before he was back in the house. 

Trust♡ is the word. Yet another overflowing message. With pure trust. 'It becomes full of God, overflowing. When the heart is innocent and the walls have disappeared, you are bridged with infinity.' OSHO

The lesson and love, the Happiness and joy in this message? Nothing. there is nothing that can be taken away from you. That which can be taken away, is not worth keeping. It becomes a barter, an object that can be pitted or played. 

The gift and the Happiness? To know that I can never lose my true treasures; what is in my heart, what is in my soul. They will always will they be there and I am on my way to finding its fullness. Of Joy and Happiness♡

My Journey of Happy-Ness/ Day 17

Ahhhhh♡ today is one of my favorite numbers, Seventeen♡ Something very weird (and fun!) about me is that I do not like even numbers, never have, and I always find a way to make a count come out uneven. And so here I am at Day 17 along my journey of Happiness♡ And I changed yet another word in my title, from 'to', to 'of.'

To implies that I have yet to experience the Happiness, while, in fact, I have; for I have not taken this journey lightly. I practice at a conscious level all that makes me happy, experiencing ALL that needs to be experienced. Without experiencing the journey, it's all merely words.

Experiencing♡

All of our experiences can be filed away in a journey or notebook, some captured in photographs and videos; but more importantly for me, today, to take a look at & understand that along my pursuit of happiness, is to unlock the doors that I thought were closed, so that I may heal, and emerge to be all that I am meant to be.

I search to accept that these experiences that are filed & locked away, ever so secretly like silent whispers in the night; but these experiences never truly stay silent, they truly are the thieves that rob us of our hopes and dreams of tomorrow. These buried thoughts wiggle their way into every aspect of our lives, shadowing and influencing our very personality; our choices, and our relationships. Unknowingly each thought, with each  distorted truth, creates a wave that has and continues to ripple outward, effecting every aspect of our life. 

So today brings with it an amazing, real and rare opportunity to look at what is locked away; to seek what has been buried deep down within my own self; to call it out from the shadows, to acknowledge it, learn what is necessary.  Not to shame, embarrass or threaten, but rather to heal and release, with a blessing and a prayer; to release back into the Universe, to be healed. Energy never dies, but it can change.  

Courageously, I look toward a renewed opportunity to understand and see how I have pushed these experiences down & away, trying to ignore them, thinking that they were gone. I now hold a constant, experiencing, knowing, that they ever don't go away; that they have remained within me, always in the back of my thought, my mind, awaiting to sabotage the purity & radiance of inner light & brilliance. Time to change the energy pattern. Time to Experience my Light, fully; to bask with the full vibration of who I truly am. 

The Love & Light of the God-Energy Within♡

So I ask myself, what are the experiences that I have locked, deep down?  I ask myself to see these experiences differently; to finally see the untruths. To accept the burden that I, myself, have allowed them to be all of my life. 

The messages♡ Too Fat. Too Happy. Not Good Enough. Too Good. Different. Pretty. 

To face the messages, each message, one by one. And to then later emerge, committed to aligning with my own inner truth by looking at what has been blocking my own true radiant light. Today, I emerge. Whole & Complete. Experiencing all that is necessary to move me into the full vibration of who I am♡ And I know that when I approach my many experiences, looking towards the root, with an openness, that within me are many more secrets to be held, shared, experienced, and released. 

I am not doing this to open wounds, but rather to understand the untruths and the lasting effect on where I am with the intention of moving forward. To finally acknowledge the messages that I have been telling myself, reaffirming, huh, knowingly, yet unknowingly, and to finally see them bare, raw, naked, and untrue.

Wish me. I wish me the most beautiful of experiences today♡