Writer's Block. I have it. The more I try, the more frustrated I become. So I let it go. My writing has always reflected a thought process into what is manifesting in my brain at any present time, and usually in every moment. Right now there is nothing.
It all began with me having a voice. My own voice. When our voice has been stuffed deep inside of us for a long time, the journey back to finding it, hearing what it sounds like, differentiating it from the other voices in our head, inching it out one word, then thought, at a time, until we are finally comfortable and (yikes!) confident in voicing it.
And for awhile, there can be a fear that this voice just might be stuffed back inside that box! Because inside that box were often ten, twenty more, voices that want to be recognized and heard.
I think that's where I am right now. It feels like others are trying hard to rebuild that box that I worked so diligently at tearing down, so that they can jump inside.
I do always try to give consideration & thought to opinions, truths, judgements, experiences, perspectives, and stories, but for me, importantly, my journey is about me; with an awareness of where I am, where I've been, how I got here and where I am going. To then makes choices that reflect my path, lessons, and experiences. Perhaps with a little help from their voice. Perhaps not. That's just my story. I do know, also, that sometimes I am very slow learner. That's okay. I am in no hurry.
Which brought me back to what I 'do,' my gift and with it, another side to the story.
For me, it was something that was learned. That we are taught adamantly in counseling. I do understand the concept of it and in fact, I follow most of the other guidelines; but for some reason I can't follow this one...
Yes... that is me right there, snap dab in the middle... the reason the rules are made. I guess that's why I am always trying to bust them down¡
Some might find it contradictory, I suppose. I do believe that there is a difference between seeking friendly advice and requesting messages and direction from Spirit and the cards.
And so♡ ... this is where the bossy comes in. My bossy. I am very aware that this is where my problem stems from in regards to counseling. I have to consciously separate the two. The Messages and Advice.
It's just not that easy. But I am learning, discovering more and more each day.
So the reason that I am deep in silence, is that I want to hear what my own thoughts feel and sound like again. I want to recognize that they are coming from that pure place and not the past fear, doubt, or judgment that I had come to know. This is only possibly when we become really quiet & silent within❤
That's where I am. Today.
It all began with me having a voice. My own voice. When our voice has been stuffed deep inside of us for a long time, the journey back to finding it, hearing what it sounds like, differentiating it from the other voices in our head, inching it out one word, then thought, at a time, until we are finally comfortable and (yikes!) confident in voicing it.
And for awhile, there can be a fear that this voice just might be stuffed back inside that box! Because inside that box were often ten, twenty more, voices that want to be recognized and heard.
I think that's where I am right now. It feels like others are trying hard to rebuild that box that I worked so diligently at tearing down, so that they can jump inside.
I do always try to give consideration & thought to opinions, truths, judgements, experiences, perspectives, and stories, but for me, importantly, my journey is about me; with an awareness of where I am, where I've been, how I got here and where I am going. To then makes choices that reflect my path, lessons, and experiences. Perhaps with a little help from their voice. Perhaps not. That's just my story. I do know, also, that sometimes I am very slow learner. That's okay. I am in no hurry.
Which brought me back to what I 'do,' my gift and with it, another side to the story.
For me, it was something that was learned. That we are taught adamantly in counseling. I do understand the concept of it and in fact, I follow most of the other guidelines; but for some reason I can't follow this one...
Some might find it contradictory, I suppose. I do believe that there is a difference between seeking friendly advice and requesting messages and direction from Spirit and the cards.
And so♡ ... this is where the bossy comes in. My bossy. I am very aware that this is where my problem stems from in regards to counseling. I have to consciously separate the two. The Messages and Advice.
It's just not that easy. But I am learning, discovering more and more each day.
So the reason that I am deep in silence, is that I want to hear what my own thoughts feel and sound like again. I want to recognize that they are coming from that pure place and not the past fear, doubt, or judgment that I had come to know. This is only possibly when we become really quiet & silent within❤
That's where I am. Today.
