I have consistently stated, often with angst, for the past many years that I had been learning the lessons of Temperance, and that this had been the most difficult of all lessons to learn.
I stand corrected. Faith and Trust ... oh boy! And yet I understand the many concepts and theories, it is not making it any easier... from my head to my heart; surrendering fully to Trust and Faith, is challenging me to my core.
The phrases that I had, in the past, replayed over and over again in my mind, the ones that I thought that I had lost along with hope, are in there, I can feel it... all awaiting to be brought back to life. This, sadly, was all replaced and lay in wait behind anxiety and panic attacks. Not a very comfortable trade-off. Although the panic attacks have stopped, the anxiety remains in tack. Having never experienced either, ever before, what a strange existence I was being made aware of. Faith, Trust in Spirit, and Hope were the only road back.
"Everything will work out as it should. If there is a will, there is most definitely a way. There is always a Greater Plan. and my cousin's favourite, God doesn't give you what you cannot handle." (To which I have been responding 'Wanna bet?' But again, here I stand, or sit, or lay; I remain here, vigilant and dedicated to a journey that I would say or teach, that I DID, in fact, sign up for, so there much be a reason. There must be a greater lesson to continue my reflection upon this today, so I will spend that time doing so. What is the greater lesson? How is this to help me along my soul's journey? What is my greatest hope for today? What is my greatest intention for today? To hold space for this and continue on with awareness fully conscious.
Our reflection is perspective, always based on the messages in which we have learned, and if we are patient, messages that we re-learn. With this, there is a strong message ending this week to remind myself that I am worthy; that I OWE it to myself to graciously accept compliments, accolades, and most of all praise, from another or others, for a job well thought out, earned, and deserved. This reflection of not being good enough, or enough, or doubt, shame, blame, or guilt, is just not mine to carry around anymore.
Out with the TRASh.
GONe... just like that, back to the moment of clarity and peacefulness within. As I move into today, I do so with so much joy, a healthy attitude, and love that runs through my veins so vigilantly. Always knowing.
LOVe knew all along.
This seems to be a place of remembrance and recovery, as the most incredible feelings of self love, blessed joy and fulfillment motivate and inspire me to begin my day from this peace. This messages comes with a deep understanding that in holding onto the chaos, deceit, masks, and lies of someone else, that have placed a great stress upon my own sense of truth and well-being. I have spend the past year working through this madness, which included anger and self pity at times. I work through all of this until it broke me down to tears. I surrendered to this gift, knowing that the true gift is in forgiveness <3
It's TIMe.
To promise. To commit to learning from the many lessons and challenges to destroy my fears. This is what sets us free. Fear sits in our root and sacral chakras, always ready to warn or halt our sense of security. Back to Faith. So the time has come to take a leap, to understand my own relationship with money and finances, to own it, be responsible for it, and to finally understand what holds me back; to see with clarity what I had been drudging along my journey. If, and this is my vision, if, I want to bring my vision forward, I know that I must become re-acquainted with, and understand my relationship with money. In order to destroy my fears of what I may be holding on so tightly to, I must acknowledge that the unknown is a GOOD space to be, so that I can able to commit to a friendship amongst faith, the unknown, and wealth.CHALLenge Accepted.
The final two messages go hand in hand with this. Establishing Boundaries and Practice saying NO. My new awareness is to ask what need is being served by always saying "YES! or SURE!" Are my responses based in love? a need? a want? success? what then? This takes me back to the inner awareness of "I am choosing to do.... because...." This can be applied to any scenario, situation, experience, challenge and opportunity.
Boundaries. Boundaries make others take care of themselves, while at the same time challenging and empowering ME to do the same. I am being called to, at this time, define my personal, divine space.HAve an amazing day, filled with self-reflection, awareness, grace, peace and love. Always be whole and complete, authentic to your own journey. Find happiness, grace, and hope wherever you may be.
Much love, Lori-Lynn