I've never been a victim

I've never been a victim. At least not through my eyes have I seen myself as a victim, of circumstances, events, challenges, of any kind. All experiences have served one single purpose. To take me on a journey to where it is that I am now... in this exact moment in time... and to further move me into the direction of my further choosing, of where I want to be. It's an accumulation of all that I have learned and discovered, tripped over, and walked through... all that I have accomplished to get me to right here. This 'dream' or vision is not anything new to me, it's been a lifelong 'dream,' so to speak. 

And so with that, I chose two cards... a Yin and a Yang... what balances the emotional stability of where I am in this exact moment. When the first message appeared, it created quite an array of negative fear-based emotions. It feels as though I am being forced to 'suppress' that it is that I so want to accomplish, which in turn feels unfair. In my mind, I have worked through so much to get to this space, it's almost that I have been believing that I have earned my way to here... so the rest should be a cake walk. Um... No so. 

The balance part of this energy is that of Trust. I am pretty certain that everybody saw that coming. Not me... I had to give it quite some thought. I can see that it is yet another opportunity to completely show that I trust in the direction; that I trust in the process. And. There is always a process. By not trusting in the process, then I am turning my back on all that I have supposedly learned... cause I would say that if I am not trusting, then I haven't learned much of anything. But I know that I have... so I am going to give this Trust thing a chance. 

:D :D :D

So what is my process from here. It's an exercise in Mental Awareness.... Mental sit-ups, so to speak... a re-training of the mental image, the narrative that I have lived by... to re-address and re-define who I am and what I stand for. Again, as I have been saying... it never left... it has always been in there, laying in wait. The thing about mental exercise is that it is really no different from physical exercises. There is sense of mental elasticity that comes into effect, all in time and with practice. Today's lesson is to replace EVERY negative thought, word, or deed, with two positive ones. It's, again, a promise to be mindful; so to improve the state of my mental health, my mind, back to its original state, minus the limitations and conditions place upon me... held in place, by me... my mental restrictive mind.

The Journey:

Listen.  It does seem as though much of society has stood by and not heard a word of what has transpired in our world for the past year. The message that I keep hearing is that it is time to fully open ourselves up to listening... and hearing... ALL of what is being said. LISTEN WITH THE INTENT OF UNDERSTANDING. Seems foreign doesn't it. Lots of this actually seems as though we have moved so far away from the skill, it's as though it never existed. What has gotten between the ears and the brain? Of course, the Ego. The greatest lesson that I can learn or choose to understand today is to, beginning in this moment, Stop listening in order to respond, but rather ListEN to understand the circumstances better. Whew.... Listening... one of the greatest skills in which one can master. It'll be quite the journey over the next week or so. 

Practice. Practice. Practice. Practice, this is the one way to transform.... with change comes a transformation of energies. Again, the importance of continually being mindful. Silence is golden... but only when we are listening to, hearing, and understanding, all of the other types of communication. Putting my listening skills into my awareness, as I explore, reach out, and form new commitments and relationships, will allow me to be transformed... by others. Transformation IS creation. 

Time and Time again, and so far this year, I have ended up pretty much inward with the same message... Be Your Best (for me, Be MY Best) always. This is mindful... as I uncover each layer of the boundaries or box of limitations that I have built up around me, I have begun to uncover the best of me. This IS my Golden Opportunity; to Unleash my best out into the world. Merely saying this sends a wave of gratitude throughout me (the chivers). I know that the stress and the challenges that I have faced and overcome. I also know that we all have. This is not to minimize mine or yours or anyone else's... we are all here to face and do with what we most are led to do. 

Right in this moment, I am being led to release and let go of the drawer where all of my hidden secrets or burdens have been neatly stashed away. In a separate drawer are the events leading up to many of these secrets and burdens. And in the third drawer, are the layers that I have applied and take out whenever I feel threatened or scared, or unloved, or not good worthy enough. Until I realized that the only love that is truly important is the love between myself and God. That's it. 

And so, it's time to put a lock on these drawers, but before closing the drawers, to visualize a loving, healing energy, along with a transformative golden energy, and to breathe it into the drawers and then shut and lock tightly... allowing the energies to do their thing... their magic. 

I realize just how important that it is recognize that I had been under stress for quite some time, and it's time to uncover and unleash my BEST by worrying less. Which brings me around to the suppression of emotions, or a holding back... and trust.  I am not a victim... but rather a victor <3 

Much love and kindness to all. Be Authentically You. always. Be mindful and loving. Lori-Lynn