As far as sleep goes, mine was continually disrupted with thoughts of not really knowing what to do I do know, is that during times of intimate contemplation, I turn to my intuition and love for the Divine, always knowing, but yet needing a reminder, that when there is a dispute, the first place to look is in the mirror.
Self Reflection. It's not about Blame, Shame, nor Guilt. It is about the messages that I allow to back me into a corner believing that there is no way out or around the circumstances or experience. Know this. There is.
I awoke in the middle of the night and reread my previous messages, which brought forth a new understanding. IS this about me? and if so, how and why? Truth be told, the message is not that I am doing something wrong, with the exception being that I am allowing another's choice of behavior to invade my space, directly impacting my sense of who I truly am.
With that, I go inward; deeply within to where the conflict sits. Absolutely, bang on, in my Solar Plexus; that being my intuitive 'feeling-ness.' I know that I am better than that. I also know that there is a reason for coming face to face and head on with another that displays narcissistic qualities.
Control.
We can only change our awareness. With that, Spirit reminds me to find the Balance that is necessary to Release the Stress that the current situation is being allowed to control rather than motivate. To understand the blockage that I have created within my own being. Truth be told, again, that it is my own sense of self, my own very precious energy is being wasted, worrying. Worrying about what had transpired in my past circumstances. And yet, I teach about letting go, releasing the past. What is done, is done. We can only put our very best foot forward by beginning each and every day anew.
This does seem as though it is a huge weight that I am carrying around. It is my responsibility to self-reflect and motivate, according to my beliefs and values. Worrying prevents me from fully accepting and believing in me. It stalks me in the night and walks with me throughout the day, when what I should be focused on is what I CAN envision and create with this moment.
Where from here? Always something to discover about my own inner strength, courage, and values. Perhaps this has shed light upon how much I am, at this time, valuing myself. What are the necessary steps. Discipline. And with that I take a few relaxing, deep breaths and remind myself of that commitment that I made so long ago. Time to focus on my set intentions, my life goals and to stick with my personal, sanctity within.
Short and Sweet with one final message to carry with my throughout my day. "Celebrate my life! No matter WHERE it takes me". Allow that amazing energy to permeate my cells, tissues, and fibres; to acknowledge the struggle; to reflect, bless, and heal, to a space where I truly understand that I am in this experience to learn a gift of the highest level.
EVERYTHING is temporary. Breathe that in again and again, while repeating,
I am sorry.
Please Forgive Me.
Thank you.
I love you.
This completes the mind, body, Divine Spirit, soul connection. I am worthy. I am kindness. I am compassion. I am joy, comfort, and inspiration. AS ME. Not as another wants me to be.
AS ME. Much love to all. May you celebrate your own accomplishments and blessings. May peace be with you.
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