My Road to Happy-Ness/ Day 23

So in my thoughts yesterday I had a moment of awareness, one in which I am trying to better understand, and more so understand its relation to my own Happiness.

I have always been a dreamer; I've taken to my many thoughts and fantasies♡ not only as a means of escapism, but rather, this IS me, who I am, what's inside of me; my dreams waiting to be discovered; to be released.  As I thought more and more about it, I realized that this, for me, is where I most need to find the balance in my life♡ along my road of Happiness♡

'Fake it till you make it!' is all good, but at some point you just gotta put those dress pants on and BE it. Somehow, I pondered, it all ties in with the Ego and I am just not entirely sure how.  Yet.

Yes, I certainly do believe that I, myself, do deserve all that I know that is waiting inside of me, all of who I am, to explode out into the world and be accepted and understood! ha! But somehow, I know that the tie also sits within the circle of achievement within my life itself.  It was many steps taken to walk outside of the fear; in the end to know and understand that it was the fear that was holding me back. And to find that happiness, right here.

Let's see... to want, but yet to live in the present moment. Perhaps it is in the moments of awakening and before bed that we are put out our requests and messages, our energies, to the Universe, to then awaken and live in the essence of the day before us. I am not entirely sure, but what I do know is that I love to dream, I always have. So, there is something there. And yes, I always believed that all of my dreams would come true, I just did. 

But then they didn't and I became confused. Because I began this journey of happiness with the challenge of living my life in the moment, recognizing that I had always been a dreamer, I have released the dreams and the wants in exchange for what is. It has certainly helped me out of the place that I was living, but as I realized yesterday, took me to a new place of unfamiliarity. What's the balance. To not dream feels a bit like a robot. To dream always felt good. To not achieve becomes a real sadness within. To DREAm♡ the impossible dream... is to be alive within♡

So today, I'll time to take a real look at my reflection; to break out of what others may have thought or believed about me. What I have allowed myself, to believe about myself. Only I can do that. So much of our society is conditioned to believe what the masses want us to believe, but the reality is that really is only for themselves; within us all; in our hearts & souls

But power and money. More. and. Want.  And so much of it isn't true at all, but more feeds the want. 

And this struggle of late is much like this, trying to fully understand and embrace my uniqueness, outside of the manipulation; within the heart & soul of integrity. For that is where my truth lay. And my truth can and WILL be ever changing, it has to. It changes as we learn and grown. 

To discover that the real education is within self; within each and every experience, with every

person that you meet, at every place that you enter, with each hug, kiss, and all of the messy also. Discover that this is where the happiness is also; within self. Go ahead dream what you want to dream, be who you always need to be, and live who you ARE, as you step into the fullness, the brightness of who you are.

So today, to move forward, to Dance, Run, Smile, Sing, whatever is necessary to awaken the sleeping lion within me; to DREAm, again, the possible dream. To live INSIDE the happiness.  And to do it My way.