My whole journey brings me around to this. I close my eyes and I relax my thoughts, and I am calm. How does this happen, I am wondering. As I grew up, my relationship with God pushed further and further away from me. It wasn't until I began the journey of discovery, of who I am, that the answer became clear. Does everyone know this or was I just left out? Was I so blind? Was this the intended path? How can you find something that you had no idea that was lost. What I do know most is that this was the peace (ha!) of me that has been missing.
The Box.
The box represents that wall around us. It blocks our wholeness. It prevents our hearts from singing. It prevents our ears from hearing. But what I understand now is that the box does not shut us off from the rest of the world, as so often is depicted, it shuts us off from our relationship with God. This is the one relationship that makes us whole. It is the relationship that connects us to our soul and it is one of goodness and joy. And love♡ That's what the teachings are about.
I am thinking that this may not make sense. I am trying to remember as I type. I allow my thoughts to flow through my fingers (as I always do... today the messages are fast and excited). Where did I fall off the path? Was I ever on the path? A new awareness. A-ha...gosh darn it, I think that I just understood. A wave of resurrection has just passed through me.
We teach a false sense of God, a fearful God. Yes, certainly, they do throw in the word Love every now and then, but this word seems to be associated with a sense of fear. Forgiveness is a word that is used most often. I understand now that there is a link between all of this they forget to teach; Love, pure and simple. They forget to teach about our true connection with God, one that is based on Love. This connection is whole, it is forgiving, and it is based on experiencing love.
I am going to stand up on this one. I have to. To shout this out to the world. We are truly teaching the wrong lessons to our children. True, I am saying this based on my experiences; but I do believe it to be true for the masses. When we look out into the word we can see it. I attended a Catholic school for a period of time. I went to church on Sundays and took part in Catechism. I went to Bible camp and joined Young Life, a Christian based group. All of these experiences should have brought me closer to and taught me the importance of my relationship with God. But rather they took me further away.
The missing component from all of these entities was Love. But how can that be.
Only a couple of experiences stand out for me during my Catholic School days, with my first communion at the top of this list. I can still envision myself kneeling at the altar with my white dress and veil; I thought this to be the most wonderful experience. That moment was one that did bring me closer to God. I was in awe of the experience. I still am. I also remember Miss Williams, my favorite teacher. What stands out in my mind is that she was not a nun, yet she is the one whom I would say most personified love, compassion, and a gentleness. I wanted to be like her. On the flip side, up close and personal, throughout my experiences, were fear and judgment, sometimes anger. I look back and now wonder, how can we teach about God without portraying love?
Looking back now at all of my 'religious' opportunities before me as a child, I believed (or rather assumed), to better understand and nurture my relationship with God. I remember just wanting to connect; to sing, to pray, and to love. But this was all against a backdrop of judgement, fear, doubt and other complexities. This is the pull. And this is where the lessons have brought me back to. That place where true love exists. True love that allows. Love without fear or judgment. Love that only learns and experiences. Love that is joyful, accepting, and nurturing. I am most grateful to be back at this place. I am grateful to remember. To remember that I am a Blessed Child of God.
A Course in Miracles~Lesson 40~ I am blessed as a Child of God.
Today's lesson takes us back to that place of remembering. Practice periods are not required today, only an allowance of remembering. Keep remembering throughout the day, bring your thoughts back to this place. I am Blessed as a Child of God.
You may wish, at times, to stop, relax, say the words, and allow yourself to feel the message; allow yourself to fully remember.
You may wish, also to add different attributes, that you may associate with being a Child of God, applying them to yourself. such as:
I am blessed as a Child of God. I am happy, peaceful, loving and contented.
I am blessed as a Child of God. I am calm, quiet, assured and confident.
We are learning to experience. First with self; for this is the only place to begin. It's difficult to teach what we do not fully recognize, know, or understand. We are only teaching words then. The word of God should be recognizable and unified; Love. Today brings us back to remembering, to the recognizable. Embrace the message. Embrace the Love♡ Lori-Lynn
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