My Road to Happiness/Day 14

Today is a snow day for me. For those who don't know, we up here in the cold white north do not take snow days lightly, they are very serious, with a a very specific formulation. Today the temperature is about -20, which under normal circumstances can mean a whole lotta fun, but with wind gusts of about 75 kilometers an hour, it can get pretty nasty out there on the highway.  We are a hardy bunch up here, but the weather can change in an instant. And so it did on this day.

Nasty. Yes. But the calm before the storm, brought a Sundog... and it was beautiful with the sun shining so brightly coming up into the sky! 

I did begin my day by heading in to work, as it really didn't seem all that bad. With the impending conditions, my husband said that he would drive me, so I was all set to go. As we started to make our way in to town, I went onto my social media just to check it out and sure enough, my little town was in a hunkered~down snow mode day. So with this, we quickly picked up some groceries and headed back home on the tailspin of an impending whiteout which was now upon us.  

Snug as a bug, we are home now, the woodstove is cleaned out (and a rocking some good heat I might add), lunch is made and eaten, water pots all filled up to the brims, and we are ready for you, Mr. Winter, come and get us!  I decided to take a moment to check my social media what's up & what's new on Netflix and upon checking our Facebook Highway Network Page, I saw that there is a 65 year old man who left for work 6 hours ago that has not shown up yet, no cell phone, no sightings, no word.  There are so many delays on days such as this and so  many worried people. So as I begin my climb to happiness today, I offer a prayer♡ to the many families that are awaiting the safe arrival of their loved ones home from their destinations.

With this in my thoughts & prayers, I continue on my quest for today of Happiness. And my of the day is PARTICIPACtion♡  I take my hands... and hold them both up, and I visualize... they are connected to the hands of another, which are connected to the hands of one more, and then yet another; and now the circle is complete... And each right hand is to receive, and each left, with an attitude of giving♡  The whole circle creates a tremendous energy field, where all those committed, create a unified bond and vital whole.  This, this is my message today.  As beautiful as it sounds. All a part of the whole. This goes for each of us and each part of our journey... all necessary, unique, important and bares gifts of the whole♡

'Like a flower, whole wholeness is even more beautiful than the sum of its parts, at the same time enhancing the beauty of each individual petal.' OSHO

It's time. The opportunity is here to participate, and for me to be a part of a whole again, creating something greater than, possibly, and perhaps more beautiful than each of us could manage alone. There. Together as one creates a wave of happiness♡ Each individual role, mine included, will not only nourish myself, but will also contribute to something precious and unique to the whole. This is where the beauty and happiness lay today; in this message & awareness♡

To see that outside of the misery, the mundane, the sadness or suffering, awaits the joy and happiness. Time to step outside of that. That period is done. Time to participate rather than be the spectator, teach rather than learn, and learn rather than teach, all a part of the whole; the vast beauty of the Universe.. no more watching or waiting... but allowing and being♡ 

***the Beauty of the MoonDogs... and yes, Sun 'Dogs' Moon 'Dogs' mean cold...*** all a part of the whole♡♡♡

Days of Happiness~ My Road

It's been a long time since I have posted here... but in the end... I found my way back. The reason being, as in all things, what is meant to be, will be, and I suppose, up to this moment in time, it just wasn't supposed to be.

I somehow managed to lose my domain name. It was rather complex, or so it seemed, and no♡matter how hard I tried, I could not access what or where I needed to be, so, for awhile, I gave up. Today, I found the key.

One of my motto's in life is that if it's meant to be, it will be and even though I was sad, I just allowed it to play itself out. In the meantime, I continued on my path on another site that I had began writing about my journey, 'My Road to Happiness, Let Love Be Your Guide, 'Dear God can you hear me?'

So here I am, back home.... with  my latest writing... which does feel like a success♡here goes...

I am being a little more quiet as I write, as today, I awoke with the onset of a migraine. I am going to fight this thing.. with Happiness♡

Last night as I watched U.S. President Obama deliver his speech to the people of his country, I couldn’t help thinking, ‘Wow! This man has so many incredible and wonderful qualities!’ This is a man whom we can all aspire, or at least take a little bit of him with us wherever we go. And rather than focusing on what was going to come next, to just stay here, in this presence. Is he perfect? Absolutely not.  How do I know this? Well, because nobody is perfect. It does appear that he makes a genuine and conscious effort, each and every day, with each and every thought, word, and deed. I see it in his eyes and hear it on his lips, and in the eyes of his wife and children; this is a man with integrity and values. And THAT, makes me happy. To see the existence of good.

Success♡ that’s my word for today. What means success. It can mean many different ‘things’ to all of us. It is up to each of us to define this. The next word that pops into my head is ‘judgement.’ Makes sense, because we are so quick to judge another by our own values, as I did above with President Obama. The key, however, is not in the comparison, but rather in the enlightenment; to see those qualities in another, to know that it can and does exist, and to strive for, on a conscious level, to hold these values dear to my own essence. To have the willingness to accept my challenges that life has offered (ha! a breath inward and exhale… yes offered and accepted)… allows me to find the gift… and to hence more forward, celebrating the success of my current goal♡ Happy♡ness.

‘To squeeze every drop of juice out of the happiness in which I am currently experiencing, brings forth a future without regrets,’ always in the knowing that the flow is endless, even in periods of drought. To not hold on, too tightly to, or too loosely in my grasp, nor to keep in a box that lasts forever; to hold yet, the greatest wisdom within, ‘whether they be valleys or peaks, is that “this too shall pass.” Celebrate ALL moments, learn from ALL experiences… and keep riding the Tiger… with the courage, strength, & faith… of the Brilliant Light that shines deep within our whisper, deep within each breath♡ connected to the light and essence of God.

Likened to the waves in the ocean; the higher the wave, the deeper the wake that follows. One moment you are on the wave, the next you are following it. Enjoy both♡ for both lead to love and love leads to a deep happiness within.

Which brings me back to my migraine. Then what to do, certainly I am not to enjoy it? Certainly I can find no happiness in it? Perhaps not, but perhaps its to provide me with a moment of rest, an inner reflection or a helping hand from another… all of these gifts.. of love; gifts that I can then ride high above the wave in another moment.

An Awakening... of the Spiritual kind

Today i begin a Journey. A journey within; a much needed adventure, alone & with my mother and niece. It all begins at midnight. I will do my best to dictate, from the heart & soul.

I am both excited and scared; my life has been on such an incredible roller coaster ride for the past year, years really, with many hills to climb, days when I felt as if I were drowning, yet so many accomplishments & days filled with peace & calm.

This, for some reason feels like a new beginning. What will I discover? What will I learn about myself? Who will I meet? How will I connect? How will I express myself? All of this will be answered within the next couple of weeks. This I know, for sure, for God is with me, my guides are with me; with only unconditional love and non-judgement ahead. A raw & real journey. So bare with me, as i search to find the purest love within, as i search to find the ME in I, and also the words to express what is happening, what I am feeling. It will be an incredible adventure of awareness. This I know.

So, for today, sending out much love to all. Let the adventures begin.
Namaste. 

the Butterfly died

Nature, in all of its Beauty, always shares with us her Message♡ the Wisdom of the Butterfly♡ 

You were ALWAYS the Butterfly♡

Yellow, a colour that reminds us to enjoy each and every moment, listening, trusting; Being. To Trust in the Process called Life♡ Embrace the Joy of each moment, not being anywhere but here♡ Live life, true to you, who you are deep within.

This message came as I spotted this gorgeous butterfly flightless along the driveway. I knew that her time was almost over, so I picked her up and placed her on a rock and went out for a walk to contemplate the message that I knew was there. (People regularly inquire about messages of certain happenings. The answer to this question is within; quiet the mind and the message will come). So I do♡

As I continued my walk, a second beautiful yellow Butterfly fluttered by me as she danced among the wildflowers along the road. Her wings carried her joyfully as I heard, 'Spread your wings and fly! You always WERE the Masterpiece; the Butterfly. This is what you were meant to learn, to do, to BE. Embrace life. Love life. I died, not you; I will always be with you in your heart, and you have continued to Live & Love. I am so proud of you♡'

I am truly grateful for messages such as this and today was no exception♡

This messages was even more deeper than what I first thought, as it brought together 3 different events in 3 separate friends lives. All 3 had lost someone very close, who they loved so very much; 3 who were unsure of how they would go on. But they did. 

The first was a long time friend who lost her husband very suddenly, without any warning. When her husband died, I kept hearing, 'You can do it. This is what we had planned. I know that you can and you will do great!' She has truly amazed me at every step of her journey since. She misses him terribly, but  has moved forward with each step, in fact, she has blossomed quite beautifully becoming the Butterfly that he knew she could be. 

The second person was another friend who lost his wife after a short battle with cancer. She is by his side continually, actually really enjoying watching him! He declared a couple of weeks back that he was suffering from a broken heart. This breaks my heart. Well, a couple of weeks later and he is on his way! Joyfully smiling, cheering everyone's day! In a manner of speaking he's a different man! She is so proud of him! 'I knew that you could do it!'

The last person lost his mother awhile back. She was very controlling. Since she has passed, he has gained new wings... renewed strength. He has reclaimed who he was supposed to be.    

This was the magic of the second and third Butterfly's as I walked along! The magic within the message, is that all 3 of these friends have soared higher than they ever thought possible!

There is Magic out there. And in Your Heart♡

Messages from SPirit, with love.

It's been awhile. I have been so very busy and there have been lots of change. Recently the messages have been coming at odd times, so I thought I would share, just in case anyone needs a message, with love, always. 

Dragonfly♡

During our recent meditation, one very special person, Sharon, saw the presence of Archangel Jeremial♡ a powerful presence she said♡

Today, I honor his presence♡ Jeremial; the Angel who 'Presides over True Visions.'

Archangel Jeremial means God's Mercy. There but for the Grace of God Go I. He is the Angel of our Hopes, Vision's & Dreams; communicating our prayers to the Most High & returning to bring back messages from the Divine Source. He communicates his hopeful messages through our visions and in our dreams.

Ask for Archangel Jeremiel's assistance to take a deep & true look within to help you to evaluate your life. A truthful journey to remember what is necessary for your Highest Good to be carried out and what is needed to change, to better fulfill your True Purpose, aligned with the Divine Will, using all of your Gifts & Abilities.

Listen to learn from your past experience & memories, which serve as lessons, bringing insight; seeking new direction; pursuing a life~changing healing♡ discovering extraordinary encouragement with each step forward♡

Pretty happy that the Robin is a bobbin and a singin his song whilst nesting outside my window, always to bring a message. Robin's Wisdom includes an understanding of the power of song & happiness. He represents your Guide in the Wisdom of Change, Growth and Renewal, letting us know that our Guide is indeed near... And sings his songs of Praise for our growth. It's not surprising that Robin's eggs are blue💦 Blue is the colour of the throat chakra; our voice; and the first centre of Spiritual Growth. Robin symbolizes the Divine Sacrifice to the Rebirth of Spirit.

'You are on the brink of everything falling into place for you brilliantly. Its like the eve of growth and renewal in you, of branching out with a new face and the power to take yourself far and high, to truly accomplish. Its the eve before very special times coming imminently where joy, clarity and fresh green shoots of new life in you come forth to expose your light in all aspects of your world. Welcome these new beginnings with open arms, they are what you have been asking for and you really have been heard. Robin is indeed a good omen.'

Gratitude is our message from Spirit today♡ 'I always trust in Spirit, my Higher Self, my Guides.' And so with this, I read the message for today and I smile♡ I close my eyes♡and I read the message in my mind once again♡ and I smile again♡ trusting that Spirit knows and will show the way.....

One of the strongest prayers that we should be doing daily, is one of Gratitude. What are you truly Grateful for? Sit quietly for five minutes and remind yourself of all that brings you joy & happiness. Then remember all that has brought you to this place; where you came from and how much you have learned & grown! See that you have never been alone; only perhaps respectfully allowed to your own decisions & choices.

To then ask for the strength and the courage to rediscover and remember who we are, at your core; a Child of the Universe; a Soul with a Purpose and then Allow. Allow your light to shine brightly, connected to All♡ Shining ever so brightly within & around♡

Something new & spectacular is about to happen♡ Be prepared to be amazed! Spirit Wisdom of the White Goose♡  Today we are being reminded that we take on the quests of our friends, peers, or family♡ we sometimes forget to step back and discern whether or not this is something that we ourselves wish to pursue. Align with who YOU are and what your own heart knows it wants♡

Make sure that the path you are currently following is your own. Take a moment to look deep within your heart♡ the true heart always knows what it wants♡ Be certain that the choice is yours and not what someone else has wished upon you.  Geese are loyal, which is an amazing quality. But loyalty with honesty defines the best in a relationship♡

Because... the White Goose has come a calling... beauty, purity, new awareness, clarity♡

Have a beautiful day <3 with love and light, Lori-Lynn

What if... and Karma

What if? .... what if we do have a soul and this soul is linked to a greater vision. What if?... what if this our body is, well, just a body... that we chose to enter. What if?... what if we chose to be a part of this body's experiences to learn our greatest lesson yet? What if?... what if this included a contract with those that surround us. A very intimate contract. What if? What if... this was our Karma.

These 'what if's' are much of what I believe. There is more than just 'this.' 

Our Souls are forever. Our Soul are committed. to Our Forever Journey. to One Another. to the Highest & Greatest Good. to Love.

What if... what if we were able to get a glimpse of what our life was to look like before we ventured into our body? What if... we were able to get a glimpse of several Ego state bodies, of which we are able to choose to enter into one? What if we chose the one that would most align us with our deepest & highest Souls Journey. 

Could we/Would we then perhaps see our Life through different eyes. Could we/Would we see our current circumstances through a different awareness. Could we/would we then be able to see through the illusions. 

What if?... what if we looked into the heart of each person that we came into contact with. What if?"... what if we looked past the visual and know that they too have a souls journey, that they too are committed to? What if?... would we be more willing to reach out and help, rather than push away, down, and condemn. 

Our Bodies come with Ego, not our Souls. A part of this journey is to align the Ego with the Souls Journey. To align the Ego with Love. Perhaps the 'fight' within is about, why did I choose this hell? Why would anybody? Why do good things happen to them? Some even ask, why can I not take away their pain?

The answer is always... Because we each have a Greater Lesson. Perhaps your lesson is so amazing and will take your Soul to a whole knew level of understanding, compassion, perhaps humour & awareness. 

Just for today, close your eyes and stand high up on a mountaintop, Mount Kilimanjaro perhaps. Look out into the vastness of the world, the sky; see the trees, perhaps the animals and others that surround you. Then feel the energy within you. Then feel your energy as it surrounds outward. Expand this energy outward as far as it can go, to the outer reaches of the ends of the earth and to the stars in the sky. Feel the connection of all that your energy touches. Sense the change in energy as it touches different things. How does it feel different? How does it enhance your being? How does your energy effect that which you touch? What do the two energies feel as they connect, as they touch? Can you change this energy? Transform it in any way? What is your reason for transforming it?    

I awoke with so many questions this morning; with a new awareness. With a hope and with a courage. Mostly to stand tall in my beliefs, my values, as my journey, is exactly that, my journey. One that is connected to the people that I chose and agreed to share this time on earth, in this body, with this ego mind, with love. 

Seneca on Fears

“You act like mortals in all that you fear, and like immortals in all that you desire” ~ Seneca

There are times when my thoughts turn to negativity or fear. That often surprises people, though, I am not sure why exactly. I do try and work through it as quickly as I can, using my Intuition and connecting with my Higher Self through meditation.  I have learned to embrace the emotions as they come forth, bless them, and finally send them on their way to be healed. Even then, still there are times that persist. The Human Ego.

There are times when the feelings and emotions just want to hang around, like an annoying ex-lover who just doesn't seem to want to let go OR to be healed. The more you try, the more restless you become. So I stop completely and find a distraction.  Last night was one such night. After tossing and turning, I gave into the restlessness and turned on my Tablet. I have said it before and I'll say it again, synchronicity is a delightful spice of life.

Through a string of coincidences, during a Facebook conversation with a gentleman in regards to something entirely different, I was directly led to the teachings of Seneca on Fear. I can't say whether or not I have heard them before, because it really doesn't matter, all I know is that upon reading the first line, I was both mezmorized and enchanted.  Odd.

Let's see where it takes us❤

'The mind at times fashions for itself false shapes of evil when there are no signs that point to any evil; it twists into the worst construction some word of doubtful meaning; or it fancies some personal grudge to be more serious than it really is, considering not how angry the enemy is, but to what lengths he may go if he is angry. But life is not worth living, and there is no limit to our sorrows, if we indulge our fears to the greatest possible extent.'

-From Seneca's essay on Groundless Fears

I am not sure if I agree with, ... but life is not worth living. But then again, it may describe someone battling depression, with thoughts of suicide. So as I pondered to completely understand its meaning, to me, I went through various writings. And it began to make sense to me. I decided to share, just in case there is someone out there in need of a little nudge. 

I do not know the order of letters or paragraphs, all I know is that it opened the fear to allow me to kick that fear right out on its backside! Here is what I read...

'It makes perfect sense, but what we do not do is seek out the situations that we fear, so that we can face them head on. If you were afraid of something, why not throw yourself at it and see what it truly is. What were you truly afraid of? Is it even worth that fear? Doing so will only ease your fear when the stakes may be much higher and provide you a strength that can’t be found in any other way.'

Most fear is irrational, based on past experiences, advice from a friend, a movie we saw, an article that we read, or even a teaching. I do believe that we know this deep down, but that certainly does not stop us! ... the writings continued...

'I don’t know why or how we do it, but when we’re afraid of something, we have a knack for coming up with the worse possible outcome we can imagine. We can get impressively creative when it comes to imagining scenarios that we think will happen to us. We suffer more often in imagination than in reality.  Accordingly,  

Some things torment us more than they ought; some torment us before they ought;  and some torment us when they ought not to torment us at all!. 

We are in the habit of exaggerating, or imagining, or anticipating, sorrow.'

This is learned. 

'Often times, it is not even you who are afraid or have any issues with what’s ahead, but others that plant these ideas in your mind. When people don’t understand what you’re trying to do, when they are envious or jealous or pessimistic, they will fill your head with negativity and fears. You have to be aware of this and not let it hold you back.

We agree too quickly with what people say. We do not put to the test those things which cause our fear; we do not examine into them; we blench and retreat just like soldiers who are forced to abandon their camp because of a dust-cloud raised by stampeding cattle, or are thrown into a panic by the spreading of some unauthenticated rumour. And somehow or other it is the idle report that disturbs us most. 

Accordingly, weigh carefully your hopes as well as your fears, and whenever all the elements are in doubt, decide in your own favour; believe what you prefer.  And if fear wins a majority of the votes, incline in the other direction anyhow, and cease to harass your soul, reflecting continually that most mortals, even when no troubles are actually at hand or are certainly to be expected in the future, become excited and disquieted. No one calls a halt on himself, when he begins to be urged ahead; nor does he regulate his alarm according to the truth.

What does it avail to run out to meet your suffering? You will suffer soon enough, when it arrives; so look forward meanwhile to better things. What shall you gain by doing this? Time…The mind at times fashions for itself false shapes of evil when there are no signs that point to any evil; it twists into the worst construction some word of doubtful meaning… But life is not worth living, and there is no limit to our sorrows, if we indulge our fears to the greatest possible extent... in the end, the most important point is to remember that fear is doing one thing, preventing us from living the life we desire.

If only each of us had our own good friends who could write thoughtful insights to us now and then!  So if you are suffering from such groundless fears, then take heart in what he’s saying and notice that things aren’t as scary as you may be making them out to be.  Pay attention, explore your fears, and understand what they really are. If you do so, you’ll notice that you can overcome them. And with that, I turned the light and fell silently asleep.

The fool, with all his innocence and faults, he brings his gift... he is always preparing to live.

the Mind of Compassion

The mind of compassion knows no bitterness nor judgment. 

No good nor bad, no right nor wrong, no true nor false. 

Only the wish for all beings to be happy. ~ Guanyin

Unplugged. Raw. And Alive.  The spotlight shines upon our Journey. Brightly, surrounded by her peers, and there are many, many peers that applaud the distance that you have traveled. Bravo. And so she continues to seek and to discover. But mostly... to experience. Life & Love

"While I was in it, experiencing it, I felt like a tempest had beset me. Uncomfortable events and perceptions. My determination and willingness to observe (variable at best) is what carried me to a place that is a space in the spirit where I can grasp some small revelation of my Self. 

...About this compassion thing -- 

it's turning out to be something very different from what I have understood it to be. It's not only a feeling of empathy, or wanting to alleviate the suffering of another, and the other meanings that are rather standard definitions. Compassion for all beings? 

It's sometimes difficult to have an active compassion, even for those I 'perceive' as deserving of compassion. What of those I think don't deserve it? What of those who are violent, heinous criminals, murderers, child molesters, and rapists? The less horrifying end of the scale -- the ones to whom I react with indignation, distaste, jealousy, etc. Some examples - how dare you treat me like that? how dare you talk to me like that? Who do you think you are, being, doing, acting like that? <<<<<< All reactive thoughts to anything that threatens my precious image of myself at the moment.

>>>>> I'm a good person. I don't deserve this or that. I'm kind to others so why am I being treated like this or that? I reached out, so why didn't they reach back? .....on and on. 

I discovered so many levels of it so far that my head is spinning! It is beyond insidious and pervasive. I think there are many sides to this 'thing' called compassion.  

And I think it really must begin with having compassion for myself. 

For me, this means initially practicing being with, and allowing without reacting to, the unwanted feelings that arise within me in correspondence to events. I believe the beginning of compassion is toleration of the part of the mind that throws out random definitions of events; pre-conditioned thoughts, to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. 

If I get into the story the mind wants to create, I suffer, and suffer unnecessarily for what seems like an eternity, and others suffer as well. 

The necessary suffering of myself, or compassion for myself, is that I see and watch the mind give its negative suggestions, without engaging, without picking them up. THEN, I can realize this immediate negative response to an event is indeed pre-conditioned. And, if I do engage, I can see that my options and possible outcomes are severely limited.  

The mind can, does, and will try very hard to take away my innate free will. 

In realizing the essential need to have compassion for myself first, and cultivating it as best I can, I then can realize that compassion for others is perhaps tolerating and allowing my own self-image-protection 'thoughts', or negative, fear-mongering 'thoughts' to rise and fall, so that I can begin to live from a place of all humanity's natural potential for goodness -- Spirit or Self with a capital S, instead of only self-mind. An admittedly daunting journey at times! I'm just starting to get my 'footing' in this place called groundlessness ---

the place, for me, that is Spirit. 

Karma

'I've had an unwanted visitor recently,'  "Her name is Ms. Guilt. She usually comes a knockin' and as soon as I see her through the peep hole, I engage the trap door on the porch. Ha! So long, bitch! Somehow I left my front door open and she came right in. 


Karma was the story of my day. and to me, it seems fitting with the drama that is playing itself out so brilliantly in the minds of many. 

We throw this word 'Karma' around like a loose piece of thread. 'Karma's a bitch.' 'Karma will bite him in the ass,' on and on and on. So when I read this statement, it created quite a stir within.  Most of our messages and reflections of Karma, are really just day to day occurrences and lessons. 

True, this is only my opinion, but one that I am passionate about and upon reading this message, I reflected upon, with hopes of opening a door of forgiveness. Karma is very different than the daily law of cause and effect, and it takes an enormous courage to, first, bear the pain, to learn, to grow, to let go. 

This is Spirituality to me; the Journey, the lessons and the growth. Karma is the Soul's Journey.   We don't all know our Karmic lessons, not in our every day consciousness, and they are typically much more monumental than the pettiness that is often tossed around. My understanding of Karma, is about a relationship with another, or others, from past lives, that we have challenged ourselves to see what we may have forced upon another, in another lifetime. For Spiritual Growth & Awareness.
  
I believe that we have, in this lifetime, in the here and now, all that we need to accomplish what it is that we set out to accomplish. I also believe that forgiveness, love, & compassion is at the top of the list and opens the door to so much more. 

Forgive yourself.  Don't condemn yourself to a life of misery or unjust rewards for mistakes or missed judgments. See the lesson. See the gifts that are begin offered and heal. Heal the pain, heal the sorrow; pack up the guilt and blame into a suitcase and send her on her way. Forever. And step into greatness.  It's YOURS.

BLISS!!!!!

The Bossy Counselor

Writer's Block. I have it. The more I try, the more frustrated I become. So I let it go. My writing has always reflected a thought process into what is manifesting in my brain at any present time, and usually in every moment. Right now there is nothing. 

It all began with me having a voice. My own voice. When our voice has been stuffed deep inside of us for a long time, the journey back to finding it, hearing what it sounds like, differentiating it from the other voices in our head, inching it out one word, then thought, at a time, until we are finally comfortable and (yikes!) confident in voicing it.

And for awhile, there can be a fear that this voice just might be stuffed back inside that box!  Because inside that box were often ten, twenty more, voices that want to be recognized and heard.  

I think that's where I am right now. It feels like others are trying hard to rebuild that box that I worked so diligently at tearing down, so that they can jump inside.

I do always try to give consideration & thought to opinions, truths, judgements, experiences, perspectives, and stories, but for me, importantly, my journey is about me; with an awareness of where I am, where I've been, how I got here and where I am going. To then makes choices that reflect my path, lessons, and experiences. Perhaps with a little help from their voice. Perhaps not. That's just my story.  I do know, also, that sometimes I am very slow learner. That's okay. I am in no hurry. 

Which brought me back to what I 'do,' my gift and with it, another side to the story.

For me, it was something that was learned. That we are taught adamantly in counseling. I do understand the concept of it and in fact, I follow most of the other guidelines; but for some reason I can't follow this one... 

Yes... that is me right there, snap dab in the middle... the reason the rules are made. I guess that's why I am always trying to bust them down¡

Some might find it contradictory, I suppose. I do believe that there is a difference between seeking friendly advice and requesting messages and direction from Spirit and the cards.

And so♡ ... this is where the bossy comes in. My bossy.  I am very aware that this is where my problem stems from in regards to counseling. I have to consciously separate the two. The Messages and Advice. 

It's just not that easy. But I am learning, discovering more and more each day. 

So the reason that I am deep in silence, is that I want to hear what my own thoughts feel and sound like again. I want to recognize that they are coming from that pure place and not the past fear, doubt, or judgment that I had come to know. This is only possibly when we become really quiet & silent within❤

That's where I am. Today.