13th Day,Sunday the Day of Rest and Rejeuvenation

I've had more than my fair share of sleepless nights over the last couple of weeks, last night not being an exception. Part of this has to do with the course that I am taking. It is a learning process. I learn by continually thinking about something until it finally resonates within. And then how to apply it to everyday life. It is challenging.

The Id,the Ego,and the Super Ego. These are the terms that Sigmund Freud uses to describe and explain the functioning of the human mind. The id is the set of uncoordinated instinctual trends; the ego is the organised, realistic part; and the super-ego plays the critical and moralizing role. There are many varying perceptions of his theory and different adjectives and they are all thought provoking. This is where my journey has taken me this week. 

Colette Baron Reid describes her theory in terms of the Goblin, the Persona and the Higher Self. The Goblin is the wounded self, the wounded Ego. As the Goblin sees it, he is trying to protect you. He is the voice inside your head that says "You can't do that!" or "Who do you think you are wanting that!" Memories, thoughts that keep us locked in the past. We often listen to that voice of 'reason'. This is the fear within ourselves. I've listed below Colette's 12 Goblin Archetypes. He’s actually trying to protect you by repeating false ideas about your self and others to keep you in what he believes is the truth. We let him in until we make the choice to love him and then put him to sleep. When you own your Goblin and give it unconditional love, you hand the wheel over to your higher self and reconnect with your soul. 

So what's the trick to all of this. There is no trick, it is a conscious effort. The Goblin, the Id, the Trickster, whatever you choose to call him, will not be silence until we make that decision to give him the love that he so desires and then put him to rest. He is very tired after all. That's a lot of saving and protecting going on. For me during my weeks work, I have made a conscious effort to be aware of the Goblin in my thoughts. As they appear, I call out to him, thank him for his protection, wrap him up in a warm blanket, give him some love and ask him to go back to sleep. It is time to move forward. He will always be along for the journey, but right now his is tired. 

As I understand it to be, the Persona is the person that people see as "You," your best foot forward. If controlled by the Goblin, it listens to the voice within, knows and wants more, but doesn't yet know how to silence (or love) that Goblin within. The Goblin is the reason that your Persona gets mixed up. By giving your Goblin the love it needs, you can move forward out of the fear and protection and step into your Persona, the person that your Super-Ego, Higher self, knows exists. What an amazing journey. We are all meant to be this person and it is only for each of us to give ourselves. This is the Intuitive Person, the person of thoughtfulness and reason, the healthy person.  

You Higher Self, is the God within, your connection to Spirit, to God. Your private self, quiet self, meditative self. We all have a direct connection to God, each and every one of us. It is up to us to discover that connection, to know it and to then live it. The Higher Self connection to Spirit says, I can do it all, have it all, be who and what I choose to be. Step into the world of ME. 

The Higher Self is not, as some may see it, an egotistical being. The Higher Self, as I see it, is pure love, thoughtfulness, kindness, compassionate. The egotistical being is wounded. For me, I know that this is often where the Goblin comes running in. Our journeys are separate and unique and we all have the ability to choose anything that we want and move forward towards that light. To put out someone else s light is more a judgement upon yourself, your light, your truth. If we can truly see and understand this as the bigger picture, it's pretty incredible. There are so many wounded souls out there, so much hurt. The Higher Consciousness of self asks us to move along our own individual journey from a place of love and compassion. 

12 Goblin archetypes. You will find that you strongly relate to one of these as your main Goblin and then two to three more as smaller tricksters:

The Judge: Critical of others, puts others down to make himself feel better, and looks for flaws in everything. Experiences cynical symptoms of low self worth sometimes masked as arrogance.
The Controller: Needs to be the leader at all times, unable to hear others’ ideas, and must have security. Acts out of underlying fear.
The Pleaser: Co-dependent and lacks a clear identity. Will do whatever the other person wants but resents it later.
The Rescuer: Distortion of healer. Needs someone to be less than so he can fix or help. Yet, ultimately, it’s him who really feels less than.
The Victim: Needs to be known as violated in order to not move forward. Based on fear, needs attention, and has repressed rage.
The Invader: Will hurt you before you get to hurt them, fear of abandonment, and no boundaries. He is disrespectful and has repressed rage/fear.
The Prostitute: Willing to give up integrity for the possibility of love, no self worth, and sees sex as a currency to get what they want (i.e. love or security).
The Manipulator: Never moves in a straight line, never says what they really mean, and doesn’t know how to ask for their needs for fear they wont get them. Covertly coercive or sneaky and can lie.
The Debater: Uses language to diminish another, always needs to argue, and can be self-centered. Talks at you but cannot hear.
The Gypsy: Cannot commit, always looking to leave and go somewhere else. Fears exposure through potential intimacy.
The Drama Queen: Everything is a TO DO. Focus is stress, stress, and more stress. Use drama to get people to pay attention to them and the dust cloud their hiding behind. All about distraction.
The Addict: Continues to do the same thing over and over but expects a different result. Flourishes in longing and yearning and chooses partners to set the stage for longing and yearning. Experiences low self esteem, repressed rage, and can be manipulative. In constant state of denial.

Have a Wonderful, Peaceful, Insightful Day! Be true to You and not that Goblin within! (Give him a day off!)