What Do i DO when i don't Fit In?

Asking for a friend. 

I was talking with an acquaintance while on a walk. Perhaps as the thought process is that of reconnecting to understand the terms SoulMate and TwinFlame. To understand is to know. To live it, to feel it, breathe it, and realize both the commitment and the opportunity; especially when it may feel as though there is none. 

When I look back upon life, what strikes me most in this moment is that we all 'train for work,' we don't train for fun, or friends, or life purpose, but rather work. Sorry, but this is hitting me like a bomb... a crazy realization, that perhaps. Perhaps this thinking has been brought on by the pandemic, but I am not entirely certain. I do know, or rather feel, that I have been sent into a rather 'freeze' frame. 

We LIVE for WORK. Working to live means obtaining resources so that you can be a functional member of society, and to permit yourself a good lifestyle. Fair enough. Honestly, according to the other hand, “live to work” might be understood in a different way. One is that your life is based around your work, or, we can choose to set a way of life, an occupation, career, or passion that supports that life.

Do what you love and love what you do.

The contemplation of SoulMate and TwinFlame has perhaps become real or reflective, as both of these
connections are extremely important for our soul's growth and for our wounds, many long-standing, to heal. This, is the strength and commitment of the connection; an opportunity to grow not only in Knowledge, but more so, in Wisdom Divine. 

We are all in this together. Lessons of loneliness or A-Lone-ness. 

I suppose that as I am pondering this whole schmozzle that has mind held hostage, I am becoming more and more puzzled. I know that I have never felt, or have been led to believe that we were put on this earth to simply work for a living. Yet, that only makes sense with the ways of our society.  We DO work to support our living; to sustain our way of life. 'Work' implies doing a project for the purpose of receive of something else, which in most cases presents as money. I do, from the bottom of my toes to the tip of my nose, believe that we all have a purpose, a Divinely Inspired one, something that were are meant to do. Passion. And, for me, it's about love, living, family, friends, community, togetherness. 

Perhaps this is where I am lost at sea. (ha... or cannot see). 

Perhaps, again, that I am standing or have strategically placed blocks, or put on a mask, a suit and a tie, and gone about life just... being without any sort of remembrance or plan. Being what I had thought, or been taught, but not what I imagined or thought. whatever that might mean in this moment... thoughts are fast and incomprehensible. 

Imagine. This is perhaps a wake up call to my imagination, which has been one of my strongest assets for as long my memory allows. My imagination... thoughts of support and a call to action. Get out of the WAY man! Look around... everywhere, you can see it clearly. We are all as talented, strong, and successful as we BELIEVE that we are. Step aside and ALLOW! Put a HALT to the Self-Doubt. Self-Discipline your mind to embrace your own Self-Belief!  

Okay then. First Step.... "Examine your Opinions." That seems too easy and to make sense. But what is the truth. Truth is, or rather, my perception is that any belief that does not work to promote abundance in all forms, rejects it. This is where we learn cognitive dissonance... the line forms to the left... all to balance conflicting attitudes, beliefs, and behaviours. To Balance the UnBalanceable. (new word alert!)

This will take me into the weekend, that I am certain; to discover the aspects of this internal investigation into what may be holding me back from acquiring all that I am worthy of.  Just because. Just because I am a child of God, the most Divine Energy of Pure Unconditional Love. So this is 2-sided; self-limiting beliefs about money and self-limiting beliefs, of well, my own self.

A reminder comes to me to focus on happiness, all of what makes me truly happy. Write down THAT list. To be aware that the energy that is wasted on worry is PRECIOUS ENERGY WASTED, period. Worrying about has transpired or created your beliefs is futile; it only prevents, blocks, locks, and holds on to us tightly. It stops us, like a speedboat heading towards shore, from envisioning, creating, dreaming, about what CAN happen, what we can BE. This weekend. Set the Intention. Release the need to please and BE. Let go of the stress and LIVE to LAugh and enjoy life. Remember. 

That is the place where I feel, as I end this, that I need to be. Not searching, or seeking, or discovering, but rather BEING. It's a book and a movie kinda day. The best kind of day. <3 Nothing important... but life itself. and that is a journey <3  

Perhaps I have just forgotten to laugh. <3 <3 <3