the Road to Happy-Ness/Day 33

Maturity ♡ wholeness & a healing ♡ so many messages, filled with love and with growth; a new dawn.

I have been acutely aware lately that I am being directed to look back and to give up what I wasn't even aware that I was clinging to; a dream. This dream. Don't get me wrong, it's not to give up what I do, as this is a part of who I am. I love what I do and know this deep within my existence that it provides the balance. What has also come to light of late is that the recognition in which I am seeking is not going to make its way back to me; not how I think anyhow. It's this idea that I was holding onto. The outcome. The gift in this awareness allows me to to move me forward toward a new light; a new dream♡ through a deep healing & with love within. This glides me onward, forward, not with the light by my side, but as the light within, guiding me along my intended path. The Journey has taken a new turn as a new awareness settles in♡ Beautiful. Breathe.

Memories♡ may be near today as I look back at the good times and thoughtful moments; bringing me to a place of much needed joy and celebration. Interesting, I see now that it is this awareness that allows for the full healing. I am able to see how I am better for the many experiences that led me to here. I am aware of each moment of pain or struggle, with eyes now opened wide, where before I saw with the narrowest of vision, I am now able to discover the intricate balance of how we are all connected; how we all exist within and assist one another in our separate journeys♡ together.

Through many of my readings of late, I have been constantly reminded of our Spiritual, Soulful Journey. And I look through those eyes knowing that if am able to see through those eyes, that I am able to better understand any situation and all experiences; to then let things or people go; to bless them, and to heal; to say 'Thanks!' for putting me back on track, for nudging me to see that I was lost, even when I didn't know it. Some of the most heartfelt and painful lessons, are the ones that were necessary for our greatest strides & growth. I am suddenly acutely aware of the Universal connections & how those many connections were brought forth, by me, for me, as a gift.

To see this I had to step outside the Ego and back into the Heart♡

Maturity~ "He can move in any direction~within and without, it makes no difference as his joy and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness & expansiveness ~ the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought him to this time of perfection." OSHO

The other night, after a conversation with a good friend, I had a wave of reflection of the past that kept me awake most of the night. Not so much with worry, but rather, of understanding and clarity. 

I have made some really bad choices in my past. I know this. I own this. But I don't live there; in fact, I had forgotten. I have worked very hard to put the past behind and walk on solid ground. Forgiveness is within each of us and key.  And with this, I prayed for forgiveness. And released. But the question in which I kept asking myself was whether or not we can ever truly leave the past where it belongs. The answer that remained in the end, was, 'Yes.' The way back from this was a sincere understanding and acceptance of both the unity and reflection of those experiences and the people that were involved. All has led me back to here. 

"The distinction between the grasses and the blossoms is the same as between you not knowing that you are a buddha, and the moment you know that you are a buddha."

As I look backwards, as far as I am able to, and within each and every memory, I can see that I have always been there. At each moment, in each place, with a gift of that moment, of that space. Contentment. That everything that I need in this moment exists within.  It always has. 

the Movement forward is to recognize the Joy in each experience; to discover the playful, the laughter, the innocence; the opportunity to celebrate the happiness, 'like a butterfly that has emerged from its chrysalis into the promise of light.'  to then dance with delight; to see anew & fresh; with excitement. 

To live with the feeling that something wonderful is just on the horizon, because that's how it feels. To then, welcome it with open arms.